A letter from Apr 25th, 2021

Dear FutureMe, What's up mate?! How you doing? Hope you're fine, or me- Soooooooooo. College huh? I mean. I'm in 9th grade, so I'm assuming you are in college already. How's life? I think you must be rather happy receiving this letter. I mean, hellooo??? Letter from the past for YOUUUUUUUUUUU, the most insignificant human being I've met!! Okay, whatever. I guess I should be the one telling the news. ;-; Sooooooooo, I'm 14 years old, 9th grade, as I have mentioned. I remember also senting a letter a year ago I think. A lot has changed since then. Beginning with Eulália's leave. Yes, she left for her home country in October 2020. Covid-19!! #ruiningeveryoneslife That's COVID-19's tag. It did ruin my year. 2020. The nightmare. It's not like I didn't actually like the quarantine, it just ruined my friendship with Eulália. We had it all figured out. At the end of the school year, we would all go out for lunch, our last lunch together. But, surprise! Covid came to ruin all of our plans. Yes. It's not over yet. Why am I even acting so surprised, of course you know when it ended or not. I mean, duh, future. Covid is still out there, and we're just out here, moving on. We were sent back to school not long ago. We were in our second confinement. But, hey! We're back! All of us except Eulália.. Even though we still talk, and we are a lot closer than we were before. By this I mean we talk less, but about more personal things. We both had a kinda depressed phase, it was about 3 months, between October and December. We just kinda talked at night, I would stay up 'till 3 am, maybe 5, and for her it was afternoon. (We are 9 hours apart) If you don't have her number, shame on you. I will leave it at the end. Idiot. Moving on, during this second confinement, I have started questioning many things, mainly about myself. This must have been the time where I have stayed more time awake, so during that time, I had to be doing something! So I was watchingggggggggggggggggggggg tik toks. And guess what got in my recommended for some reasonn. LGBTQ+ tiktokssssssssssssss Again, don't ask me how they got there- but yeah. That's how I started to question myself. Right now, I am identifying myself as pansexual. Which is, if you don't know (which would be weird af-), a person who is attracted to all genders, like female, male, or non-binary. So yeah. I'm still not sure though, since I have never had a love interest, I can never be sure. So, I have came out to the people closer to me, like friends and sister, but obviously not my parents nor family, I don't know how they would react. So yeah! That's the part about myselfffffffff. But whAT NOW?! Something that has been affecting me. My sister! ;-; THis is gonna be a little weird to talk about, but screw it. She is now the most, annoying, self-centred *****, I have known. Yes. Mommy and daddy's sweet little innocent angel is now a fking teenager that came from HELL. I kinda felt the vibes that I was never the favorite -,- but NOW?? Shxxxtttt. I am the most well-behaved teen I've met. I am the literal best. Of course, putting apart piano. We do not talk of that. She has been ignoring me and our mom, like we are that weirdo in her class nobody talks to. She talks back, and sorry to say sis, but you are A BRAT. now. And I am sick of it. FKING GROW UP!! You're not a baby. Stop being so annoying and go back to being perfect. If this is what it takes to be the favorite. Losing my sister? Fk off. I'd rather be the family's disappointment. Not hard really but k- Moving on! On my 14th birthday, aka 17 december 2020, Avó João bought me the ONLY THING I WANTED FOR YEARS. My drivers license for motorcycle! Well, it's not exactly a motorcycle but.. CLOSE ENOUGH. THe only real difference is the speed it can go. Though the lessons only started last week, 20th april, because of COVID. Even so! I am vey happy for being given this chance!! They only give us a week to study, so all week this has been my priority. The exam is in 2 days, and I feel confident. But not enough to stop working. I want to pass. I NEED to pass. I'll send you a letter soon. Don't forget to keep sending yourself these. It's keeping me sane. Because in this house? I AM GOING . I N S A N E.