A letter from Apr 25th, 2021

Dear FutureMe, I'm in a boring *** history class rn. You're teacher is very sadistic for giving 1,5 hours of class every week. We're still in quarantine, online schools. I've been listening to GretaVanFleet lately. I ate oatmeal porridge with chicken this morning. I said I'm dedicating this year for inspirations, development, and growth. I've been very patient for a while and i love it because it feels like everything works really well. I realized that patience is gold and you often underestimate it. But it's fine because you learned and that's the most important thing. Last year i had a feeling that this year is going to be positive. And it's been going very well. Like i said, you learned about patience. I don't know but i feels like my life begins. I love it. You know how even if you have the biggest dream ever you still can't see anything about yourself in the future. I'ts black and hollow. I am very happy because i've been dreaming a lot. Having dreams makes me feel like a human. The feeling of wanting to know if the dream becomes true or not is pretty hunting. And that's the reason why i write this. I think it'll decrease the feeling. One of the biggest thing that i learn this year is not to give up. I'm pushing forward and i hope i still do at the moment you're reading this. I'm seeing the footsteps even tho i do not have a vision. I say this way too much but i really am grateful about this quarantine. I never reflect so much to my own self before. It really feels different. These feelings are things that i've never felt. I think god is giving me answers because i remember one time i rant about how boring and monotonous my life is and now it is probably here. Its not even half way through. Its even less than one percent. But it feels grate and i love it. I hope this feeling is not going to fade and vanish. I realized a lot of things about my self, i see a lot of perspectives of others and it's priceless. Writing this is actually such a big responsibility because it would be very saddening and depressing if i failed. Well I am very optimistic right now but no one knows. Its getting scary. Well i guess the best way to get through it is not to take this very serious and just sleep. Its getting scary. xoxo, sabelle