A letter from Apr 23rd, 2021

Dear Future Me, I chose this random date because I didn't want to expect to receive a letter. You'll get this when you're almost 22... Hopefully you're still alive by then? It's kinda sad, but I really don't see myself living past twenty lol. BEING AN ADULT SCARES ME. If I can't read this because my email address changed or I died, then hi randos reading my letter on this website!! HOW WEIRD WOULD IT BE IF WE ACTUALLY KNEW EACH OTHER?? Please keep reading if your name is Kevin. Hints for who I am: yellow + black, kyo sohma, short, yr 12 boy, poo, bad at sports, hate math, assisi. (Only useful for people I went to high school with) My thoughts about the future? Well... I expect you to be in uni, studying as a psychologist or social worker, with an actual JOB, hopefully in a relationship. If NOTHING FITS THESE STATEMENTS, then ****.. tf happened? Unless you won the lotto or got a sugar daddy, then okay that makes sense. Also, I just KNOW you will have glowing skin, and be fit, and have straight *** teeth. I really think twenty two will be an amazing age. How's life now? Well, I'm more social and confident and have higher self esteem than in year 7, but at the same time, I can sometimes feel myself retreat back into my shell. Stress gets the best of me still, as does PROCRASTINATION. Istg, if you are reading this instead of doing your assignment that's due tomorrow at 8 am, then PUT THIS DOWN!! actually nah keep reading ;) My favourite artist is beabadobee, because she is simply AMAZING. I just know she'll be big by now, as she should. She only has like 689 427 followers on Spotify... BETTER BE AT LEAST 2 MIL NOW. Other fave artists: mxmtoon, Wallows, Shawn Mendes, Boys World, Clairo Movies: Matrix, Star Wars, La La Land, Inception, HSM (more, can't think of them atm). Shows: Miraculous Ladybug (BRUH IF THEY HAVEN'T HAD THE REVEAL YET... bet it's only at like s5 still), Fruits Basket (ahhh ends this year sad), ***** Note, Friends, Vampire Diaries, ATLA Colour: Pink (it's pretty don't be judgey) Usually I handwrite letters to myself all the time, but I'm using this because my amazing friend, Emma suggested it. And also, I'm hoping that, five years into the future, Kevin is reading this. I like you (now). Obviously, by 2026, we probably won't be in touch anymore and I will be well over you by then. I just want to let you know that, in high school, if you ever felt unappreciated, you were very wrong because I liked you a lot. I thought I was over you, but at SECA preparations today, you watched me play volleyball. My team were being supportive queens, cheering me on, but when I heard your voice amongst them, my heart started doing cartwheels in my chest. Of course you didn't actually see the times I played well. The time I surprisingly served the ball over the net, the time I won a point for my team. You only saw the time I served the ball IN A COMPLETELY DIFFERENT DIRECTION AND BASICALLY THE REST OF THE GAME WHERE I PLAYED CRAP. I was panicking, overthinking, replaying the moments in my mind, annoyed that you only saw me when I was doo doo. I started wondering why I cared so much. And that's when I realised I hadn't actually gotten over you. It's annoying and stupid and I hate it because I know you don't like me, and will never like me. Kind to everyone, good to have a conversation with, funny, charming, intelligent, ambitious, friendly, energetic, supportive, and cute of course. All these words perfectly describe you. Cocky and competitive too though lol. We talked a lot last year, but now we barely do. I miss our conversations. I miss you. It's cheesy, but it's true. It's also unintentionally rhyming too. I hope Future Me is reading this and reminiscing about how things got better after April 23rd. Or perhaps just cringing at how stupid this is. K, I hope you're doing well, I hope you've found happiness and success and love. I hope you haven't changed from being that wonderful boy I liked. If you have happened to stumble upon this letter by chance, and you have a good memory, I'm guessing you know who I am, so tell me, okay? Odds are I'd be happy to talk to you again. Thanks for reading this far :) I know being in a relationship doesn't matter and you can be single and happy, but I can't help but hope you have a boyfriend, Future Me. I honestly can't imagine me being in love because I can't imagine anyone loving me. I know this other guy has a crush on me now, but he's probably crushing over some idealised version of me in his head considering the fact we've never even spoken before 💀. Besides love, Future Me, I just hope you're doing well. While I know you're probably gonna have to go through some really tough times, I also know that YOU WILL GET THROUGH IT. Give it time, and you will heal. I believe in you, and after all, you are me. I hope the world is better now as well. I hope we've successfully rid the world of those disgusting racists, *******, ableists, homophobes and transphobes. And JB from highschool LOL JKS.. I just hope I never see him or anyone else I hated from high school ever again. I love you, 22 year old poo head. Never forget that. Yours Truly, 2021 Me P.S ignore the spelling/grammar errors IM TIRED, KAY? P.P.S who's president? AOC AOC even though I'm not american lol P.P.P.S go hug your friends. and drink water. and take the meat out of the freezer. and call your parents. and dance in the living room. and see the world. and smile at strangers. and tell him you like him. and slap a cactus. and tell a racist to go **** himself. and write a song. and take cory on a walk. and watch the stars. and see beauty in everything. and breathe. and live life. i think your early twenties will result in the best memories. you can drive (hopefully, scary still, only have like 4 HOURS LOL), drink, spend money, live independently. GO DO IT!! :D P.P.P.P.S if you're just some random person who happened to read this far, then dayuum i wish you a beautiful day shawty <3