A letter from Apr 22nd, 2021

Peaceful right?

Dear FutureMe, I really hope you feel better. Things aren't really good now. I hope you reached your goals. Did you lose weight? Did you choose a good high school? Did you get better at dancing? Can you play the guitar? How is it going in school? Do you have a roommate? Did you get some new friends? What's their names? What high school did you take? How did you decorate your room? I really hope it's green. What kept you going? Is mom calling all the time? How is it going for Andjela? How is Jovana doing in 8th grade? Is Andjela in England? Is it hard, you know, with life? Do you know what you wanna be when you grow up? Do you have your hair short now? Is it a shaggy wolf cut? Do you finnaly wear makeup? Did you get taller? Do you visit Jennifer sometimes? Did your clothes style change? Did you get a boyfriend? Do you miss Filipstad? Is it fun there you are now? Do you have a dance youtube channel? Is your fear of water better? Is Coronavirus over? I really hope it is. It's hard now. Did you forget any good stuff that happened? Do you still have contact with any of your middle school classmates? I hope you're not that lazy anymore! Get yourself together! You can do it! Make mom proud now, please... Study really hard and don't forget to rest... Are you eating normaly? Please do. There are so many things I want you to think about: Don't get too stressed. Work hard and prove mom that you can get a job. Make her the proudest mom. Let her see what amazing daughter she have. Call Jovana and help her with her studies. I know it's hard, but you can do it. Think about what you want to and will become. Write again here and send it to us when we are 19. I love you, please take care of yourself and others. Don't let me down. And, Happy Birthday. From 14 years old Kiki to 16 years old Kiki.

Epilogue

6 months later

Nothing freaking changed Kiki.
You are Sucidal!
You're still fat and ugly.
No you did not cut your hair.
Friends? You actually stopped being friends with Jennifer, but she's asking...

Ehr rrtwomoo lkta inaga ot uoy to.
Akto yuo peoelp in oholcs twhi tuo are heter hnag meos edi?nrsf ytrpet thoer. You they dmaengii who are otn. Calytlua uyo eenll fo ,aldalery tehm oknw noe. Fo leocs tub nto ayn hemt twhi o'yure.
Ulrpep si lslti uyro ailymf ryuo eilv nad ti ot twih csohol, moces ouy whne moor.
Afil gmy ton nuhalkässalmkpsd yllou' rolbbpya sgtinyud dna ueo'ry class dna.
Uyo unf oby ochslo ekli ta'shw ni a. Dna inagnthy rty fro yeour' annog mh,i uyo baotu onwk otd'n npsa aks btu ihs.
Also. . . . Tnrgwii aeslt woehl ady a ta 'oeryu tfncosifani husro 4 eth d,ya tosmseiem.
Uyo odf,o verey ?ofod oyu up ot ouy eta teah natw etmi hrtwo.
Eth adn uory esbcuea go lehath cslhoo you temaln of to dab reuns. .
Cenda a ?adnce eilk ni or coen uyo mhtno ssel. It etbtre anc ?utagri sskuc did ouy tuarig dna hte ouy lypa htan tub lsilt. Wno oitn iaopn ruy'oe erom. Gons oyu on wen rndeael a opina teh. Ebsulonet eyall.
Ujgdnig oury omer sllit nda ouy htea nath fyalim aer eyht rvee. Tgnohni ocparem to eerv 'sshe htme ,wsa hyte fnjniree oewrs now thta rea. Ouy rhe ndaik imss.
Subecea ltmsoy too scku anidk own sinrfde uyor.
Kdrun er?tsec rfsti eitm ouy rof reev a got the. You ercdi a olt.
Rdah otg icnpa bnhtaergi imte ,bad yuor aetnyxi si dan taactk a uyo dah aols.
Torfog heva itme taht eaebcus bgiarethn ysa uoy you otaiehlrn drah feotn ues to. Uryo od you dyob sola eatvhewr uthsr. Tou oyu hatw nwana lerlay rtdesess uyo rafte rea ihgh ohslco eebmco.
Ifgrichn paeunt entw oyu oh and ym wadncs,hi kpop turbte otcenrc jlyel no a. Ckehc ,esro tmeh eht uto. Eanm acpel the to tn'ddi meoc a dan ogod oyu os lluf rohu rcide ccntore amngiaz, het nawan efrat htta it for aimlfy aeelv an svebuia swa uesceba ppyah uoy.
Ca,n uyo eyevr injenefr svieg ti dna em tturs viel renfniej, htwor away t'si unr yuo emcmtno fi oemh eittll sillt iwth mofr.
Now lkie genyoru tath fr,yseuol ikll tirses oyru day oyu reyev nhtik so suges ew to stlel.
Uyo is eth nylo levo egtra, niakd vignil igthn immi. Nhea'vt gshot frendi tseb your felt uy,o cooslh him ense ouy gihh boy sniec also easdttr ouy. Eth all erhtos tfle in rea dan roteh hoem.
U'yoer no nwo yrou.
If eutuabfli of lppeoe in and eth uyor aymdsaedr oyu nnasuicffto d'ton lla ctnou.
Ddagirnmyae a isllt ,ayeh oyu htwi avhe lbmreop. Ntha s'ti owrse eerv.
Bye! pheo you !die.

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