A letter from Apr 22nd, 2021

Peaceful right?

Dear FutureMe, I really hope you feel better. Things aren't really good now. I hope you reached your goals. Did you lose weight? Did you choose a good high school? Did you get better at dancing? Can you play the guitar? How is it going in school? Do you have a roommate? Did you get some new friends? What's their names? What high school did you take? How did you decorate your room? I really hope it's green. What kept you going? Is mom calling all the time? How is it going for Andjela? How is Jovana doing in 8th grade? Is Andjela in England? Is it hard, you know, with life? Do you know what you wanna be when you grow up? Do you have your hair short now? Is it a shaggy wolf cut? Do you finnaly wear makeup? Did you get taller? Do you visit Jennifer sometimes? Did your clothes style change? Did you get a boyfriend? Do you miss Filipstad? Is it fun there you are now? Do you have a dance youtube channel? Is your fear of water better? Is Coronavirus over? I really hope it is. It's hard now. Did you forget any good stuff that happened? Do you still have contact with any of your middle school classmates? I hope you're not that lazy anymore! Get yourself together! You can do it! Make mom proud now, please... Study really hard and don't forget to rest... Are you eating normaly? Please do. There are so many things I want you to think about: Don't get too stressed. Work hard and prove mom that you can get a job. Make her the proudest mom. Let her see what amazing daughter she have. Call Jovana and help her with her studies. I know it's hard, but you can do it. Think about what you want to and will become. Write again here and send it to us when we are 19. I love you, please take care of yourself and others. Don't let me down. And, Happy Birthday. From 14 years old Kiki to 16 years old Kiki.

Epilogue

6 months later

Nothing freaking changed Kiki.
You are Sucidal!
You're still fat and ugly.
No you did not cut your hair.
Friends? You actually stopped being friends with Jennifer, but she's asking...

Uoy tromwoor to ehr ltak to aiang.
Eelopp eosm oatk ethro iwht feindr?s ni scloho ngah ear eterh you otu yrttep. Nidagime not heyt are hwo uoy. Wkon of yle,rdaal temh lltacuay neo uyo leeln. Ehmt ocesl wiht ubt of our'ey ont any.
Ppleru somec si nda uyo thiw to uyor room ryuo afimly wehn iltsl it osclho, veli.
Udtnisyg alahukspkädlsnms ouyll' nad sscla nto gmy lifa adn bpoyablr ou'rey.
Olsohc fun kiel in byo a yuo w'htas. Try ongna ouy orf ish ,mih npsa aks tbu nowk t'ndo nntyhgai tabuo eour'y adn.
Oasl. . . . Dya a laset ta irgwnti ,dya 'oyeru 4 aiocsitffnn the ohsur tomesisme hlweo.
?fodo ot antw up uyo oyu uyo o,fod hrtow vyree aeht time ate.
Og adb oyu eht aehthl ocsohl alnmte euabsce dna ot ernsu oury fo. .
In ikle uyo mtohn eocn dnaec adcen? a ro sels. Acn ucsks athn tub idd tebter teh ga?riut it riautg yalp stlil and uyo oyu. Ainpo reom tnoi nwo ue'yro. Iopan no wne neardel nsog hte ouy a. Neloustbe lalye.
Evre ouy stlil nggjiud ifyalm orme htae ear htye tnah dna rouy. Seowr eevr jfennrie cprmaoe hes's won htta are ethm yhet ,aws to tgnohni. You msis kidan her.
Sinderf uyor nwo oot yotsml kcsu ainkd sucbeea.
C?srtee you ogt eimt unrdk sifrt the rfo vree a. Tlo ouy cdire a.
Ntiayex tgo a d,ba anicp oyu hdar dha ahbginter ackatt ryou and miet loas is.
Auebcse rfotgo uoy lohritena fonet arhd ot say ghbnrtaie sue eitm ouy evha tath. Alos ydbo do you trevhwae yruo husrt. Embeoc oyu lleyar lhcoso otu eartf sedssret anwan rea htaw uyo hhig.
Yljle ptuane ppok wten ,hcasdnwi uyo btruet nhgicifr ho nda no my tcenocr a. Hemt cehck seor, uto eht. Aelpc full aemn gdoo ot vbiasue yfliam orf ananw fater aevle eth ,izamnga you dna ercid urho uebasec a dni'dt yuo orctecn cmoe saw phayp os an ahtt hte it.
A,cn eeyvr uoy ietltl trstu nnjfieer eilv mofr rhowt ihwt run ievsg nad tecmomn em 'its ,rfineejn ltlis oyu ehmo aawy it if.
Letls ikll youlfsr,e tnkhi dya ouy htat eervy oyur unyergo to kile os onw sersti susge we.
Uoy rtae,g is miim ovle ilgniv het hting akndi onyl. Lfet snee rndfei oochls yuo, ihm steb ouy hhgi oyu tsogh ryuo drseatt byo aslo hna'evt censi. Ni lal ftle ohme are the dna hoetr ohrtse.
Royu eu'yor onw on.
Tn'do in eleopp oyu ymarddesa fi tncou otnfnfiuacs fo dan het oyru etauflbui all.
Tihw a heva haey, oyu epblmro mynadaigerd lstil. Vere naht it's sower.
E!di you ye!b hpoe.

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