A letter from Apr 20th, 2021

Dear FutureMe, I've been thinking about love. I've never experienced romantic love before, maybe you have, but I'm not there yet. I haven't met someone who makes me feel that way, I'm looking forward to it though. I imagine that it feels fluttery and soft, overwhelmingly bright, maybe it will make my heart race and send a hazy burst of light through my body each time I look at him. I'll probably feel hesitant, I've never been a believer in love at first sight, I believe in a gradual realization, one day you notice that you've fallen in love, no immediate moment. I wonder if I know him yet. I wonder if you know him yet. Maybe you know, maybe you don't. God has someone in mind for me, I trust he'll be good. I wonder what he looks like. I'm going to theorize a bit, if you don't know yet just tuck it away for later maybe? I like dark hair, black would be my favorite but brown is good too. Blondes have never been my type outside of Thor, so. Blue eyes. I want blue eyes. I don't know if it's because I like my dad's or my long time appreciate for the Bruce Wayne look. I like tall, lean guys, muscles are nice but I'm fond of lanky guys too for whatever reason. As for his personality, the most important thing is to be able to laugh. He doesn't have to be the funniest person in the world, but being able to laugh over simple things is the most magical feeling. If I'm not expressing by own dry humour and sarcastic comments then I'd have to have seriously changed. Light roasting and a teasing back and forth is the pinnacle of bonding exercises in my current opinion. I like dry humour and witty comebacks, and as silly as it is, it's important to current me. I hope he's smart, not necessarily academically, but clever in some ways. Maybe he's a quick thinker, maybe it's musical talent, maybe he tinkers, maybe he's a mathematician and makes up for all the stuff I can't do. I want to admire his brain, as weird as that is. I'm excited to know him