A letter from Apr 19th, 2021

Dear FutureMe, Are you still struggling? Do you still have a low paying job? Have you reached at least one of your dreams? How are you today? I hope you are okay. Hope you can smile now genuinely. I hope you finally found the one. I am sending this letter 5 years from now, 2021... So by that time it is 2026. Hopefully, you are happier. I hope I am fit too. Or am I still alive? Please, I wanted to be happier. I hope there is no covid now. It is still pandemic here. **** this government, **** you dutertsss. So by the time you receive this, a new president of our country is serving us right? Please be good... Our country is doomed So I can choose a date. Okay, I will send this on my birthday. My feelings? I am empty. I do not have any amount of love for someone. For a lover I mean. Or a crush to someone. I do not know, maybe because I am stucked in this house? But I felt safer here. But I need some getaways. Vacation, to beach? Yes maybe It is 1:50 am now. Maybe I should sleep now. I still have 2 pending jobs in checking. Geeez, I love my job. i am also starting. Self, you can do this. I hope I will be appreciated here. Hey self, are you still happy in your work? If not, then leave. Do you know what? I finally learned that I am liking someone because they gave me some hints. Not because I genuinely liked that someone. Just like what Dongryong from rep.1988 said "why does it matter who likes you? You? Whom do you like?" And honestly, I have no answer for that. Sadly, yes. So this time, 2026, do you have someone you truly liked and cared? Because I think my feelings for Rynld is just because he is there near to me. And he is also my puppy crush coz he is cute lol. Okay I am sleepy now, good night :)