A letter from Apr 18th, 2021

Dear future me, Lately I feel kinda horrible and today something happened that I hope you will be a better person and you have learned and changed because of that Today Rokicha, my dearest little sister and I had a fight about that I don't listen to her we were doing the blanket of the couge when she was so angry that she send me away and I was going to the the kitchen and made some bread and tea When she was done with the couge we were still having a fight and then I packed my laptop and sat on the couge to watch Riverdale when she went to the kitchen and shout at me because I don't listened to here then she pulled my laptop upwards and I pulled backwards and because of that the screen crashed for a big part She was going to her bedroom to make tik toks and cry In the first place I was very angry because I couldn't watch Riverdale or do anything else but then I realised that it could have been me who did that and I found it pathetic for Rokicha that she was crying But when we told our parents our mother started shouting and she told us that she would hit us after a while my father was that angry tha he hit us both and sent us to our bedrooms We were both crying and after a little while he was calling us and ask us questions but before that he and my mother both agree that it was the right decision to hit us however I totally disagree because we are children and he must have been a good person After the questions because I didn't eat rice I had to eat and they send Rokicha to the dark room down stairs after I ate I ask my father to bring my phone upstairs so that I can set my clock for tomorrow online school but he said no and I went upstairs to my room crying and I couldn't stop thinking about Rokicha what was happening to her how is she? I felt bad for her especially because I am her sister and I need to protect her She is the only one that I love the most even tho we sometimes disagree After a long while my father called us to eat fruit and we ate everything actually I was really happy that Rokicha was there, sitting next to me but before I left he told me that we have it easy and he is gonna change that he is going to parently more strictly to us Then he gave me his password of his laptop and I went going to the bathroom and now I am wearing a underwear and bath jacket So yeah that is al very terrible 👎😖 But I've learned that hitting people is not the solution you have to talk and listen to each other and always have some extra money on the back of your hand if something may broken because those things happen My father felt bad for my laptop welll I feel bad for my little sister instead of a thing he could at least make clear that he loves us and care about us no matter what but he didn't he fully agree with my mom and that is his choice but I don't want to be like him ever I hope the future is better Bye, Love me💔