A letter from Apr 18th, 2021

Heya FutureMe, Well, how to start... My life is a real rollercoaster right now. But isn't it the purpose of life? Either nothing happens, either everything happens at the same time and come into your face. These days are pretty insane. The moment I am writing, I feel better so my mind is quite clear. But Papy died last-last friday (same day as Prince Philip btw), RIP. So I was quite in a bad mood, but as soon as I had the new, I go early in the Buttes Chaumont park, and go for a morning walk. I needed this. Especially this day, the Jourdain church was open, so I entered, feel the good energy and made a prayer for him. (I never saw it open again, so I was lucky that day and there was even a choir). Until this day I go each morning to the park, and this is so good. I go for a walk, or even for a run. I did my very first jogging the day after yesterday! Didn't know I could run 6.5 km, it was quite pleasing. Maybe when you will receive this letter, I made running some sport I can't do without it, I will have a real pace, and a good endurance, even maybe I'll have a smart watch. Who knows... But at the moment I have big aches in thighs hahaha. Also this is the first week-end I really take care of me. My soul, my body, my skin, my hair etc. Never really done that before and that was really pleasing and helped me to think about everything else but this tragedy. I have this new routine too then, taking care of myself, full body scrub and scalp massage. Is this something you still do? If not, please take the time to take care of yourself, this is important to unwind. I spent a really quality time with D. I was so happy to find him again, we made love in such a short time because we didn't have so much time, and that was intense. Are you still in contact with him? In good terms with him? I hope so. He is precious. Like, really. He really helped me throughout those hard Coronavirus times. And without him I don't even know how I would be or feel.... So after our encounter, I had a very big smile on my face, so much energy too! I told about rollercoaster at the beginning. So at this moment I was on the very top. Then comes the big drop.... I was so happy that I wrote a little message to Gui'. He was just thinking about ******* himself. Don't really know or understand what I feel right now. But I saved his life. And still the exact same day, mum told me about her new metastasis in her neck, it kinda shat down her good mood.... So yeah. During all the week, I just did not wanted to work, just wanted to be with my relatives. And f*ck this job... I currently have no f*cking interest in what I'm currently doing. So I hope you quit it and are doing something really meaningful. Also that you Finally get your driving license! Maybe you are vaccinated against the Coronavirus (Astra Zeneca?) Hope you have more s. with A. Hope you continue pixelarting and did some good animations... Did you sew new clothes? Just... Don't forget to live... Remember this lady at the tea house asking you "Who are you?" Take care of yourself. T.