A letter from Apr 18th, 2021

Dear FutureMe, It will be our birthday, by the time you get this letter. That means you will finally be a big 2..5. I don't know if you will have everything figured out, but I am sure you will be half way there. Past you (me) always thought by the time I was 23, I will have everything figured out. Perfect relationship, a house and my own car. I didn’t have it all mastered. Except a job (teaching) that I don't really like. Hope you will be better and go after your dreams and finally start your youtube channel. I have a job, complicated relationship and I don’t have my own house which you already know cause obviously you are me. Haha. Today I make a promise to you that I will stop letting guys take advantage of us and work toward finding a stable and healthy relationship. There’s a boy I like. His name is Greg. I call him G. He's perfect, but he lives like oceans away from me. He lives in London, but hopefully, by next you would have already met him and hopefully dating him. Did I mention he is perfect and all and he's cute. I love his eyes but most of all I love his personality. With him I feel like I can talk to all days with no awkwardness.. Like I have known him for long. I feel like he's the kind to be a lover and a best friend. Hopefully, I would master up some courage and tell him how I feel🥰. I don't want you to be depressed like me. Always feeling lonely and crying at 2 am and waking up like it's nothing. I want you to live a carefree life and hopefully you have fully accepted yourself and forgave our mom fully. I don't know about M, honestly I am confused. I don't know if he loves me but I hope by the time you read this.. You wouldn't be playing his game and have either moved ( hopefully to Greg) or maybe he's changed and putting in Effort.. But I am sure we have a massive crush on G. And I know he will treat us right. Stop accepting bare minimum. You deserve it all and better❤️🤍 Happy birthday Samantha. This is from past you to you as a present. I love you and ill hopefully leave you another letter soon. Bye Sam. Remember what matters is the present.