A letter from Apr 17th, 2021

hey stupid ugh as usual tu sais meme pas par quoi commencer , c tout toi sa , i really hope que cv changer avec le temps😭 , anyways , past you got your back in case u forgot who you are al hmar look , si maintenant t pas a paris entrain de faire ton master f une grande ecole t une pute ok? non serieusement , i really hope ta repris ta vie en main , not like the old you that is just lost sans rien foutre de HHHHHHHHHHH ra wlh ta g pas envie d ouvrir mon mail dans 5 ans et me rendre compte que ma vie a tourné au bordel depuis remember , today you took your first real L and it s ****** tough , i really really hope that it didn t have an impact on our dream , man we re great , and we re made to leave an impact , we re gonna be successful i just know it ugh ecoute , u better have started your music carreer , we both know that it s our ultimate dream , we may be struggling with it for the moment mais hold into it , c primordial pour nous et toujours , keep by your side les gens qui comptent le plus pour toi , je sais ce qui s passe dans ta tete et j peux meme dire que dans 5 ans sa peut etre pire avec l effet de l age adulte mais , garde les auour de toi no matter what , i know you know how it feels to be alone and having no one to text donc accroche toi a eux maintenant j arrive au plus important , tisha , listen , tout ce que g dit en haut c important , oui , mais tisha c le plus important dans tout sa , JE T INTERDIS de faire des conneries ou de lui briser l coeur , she s too precious ta peut etre dit sa avant avec d autres gens mais soit sure that she will love you like no one ever did , you can just feel it in the way she touches your face or the way she looks at you , (essaye de ps la mettre enceinte entre temps stp😭😭😭😭) okay ra 3arf din dimak pessimiste donc on envisage le pire des cas si jms there s a breakup et au moment au tu lis sa vous etes pas ensemble ,GHA TNOD TJM3 9LAWIK AND SEND HER A MESSAGE DB ? UNDERSTOOD? I DO NOT ****** CARE CHNOU TRA EVEN IF ONE OF Y ALL CHEATED , RA TA HIA I LL SEND HER A MAIL OU AN GHWT ELIHA LIKE THAT SO SHE S PROLLY ENTRAIN DE S FAIRE DEMONTER RN hmar hada 3sbtini mais bon , soit tu lui envoie un message soit an khrj l waldik mn l ecran ok? RA SHE S ****** WIFEY MATERAIL A BNADM HOLD INTO HER u needto get that in ur head , she makes you happy and she s perfect , protect her , she needs it , and if she ever starts changing get her back to the right path wakha ik she s strong af and she won t but anyway😭😭 idc , if it happens ur prolly a ******* rn or something but get your *** up , ra INTERDICTION to fall in love with another it s either her or nothing , just remember how safe u feel arround her Okay now let s talk about something else , that mf that lives rent free inside you , never let him go , he s a ***** and he keeps ruining your life but keep him , that prolly sounds crazy but , ik u understand me , he s a part of you and he is who ou are, if he goes aways ra ur gonna be no one or at least be somebody completely different ; KEEP HIM yk he gives you the power to write and do what you love , who are you gonna be without him ? just a normal person ? nah c pas nous sa , abdullah lamkinsi needs to fully live and feel the pain to be alive , we need that and that s who we are maybe we hate him , but we love him as well , so please hold on to him and don t let him go , times can be tough and he can start having more control on you , just let him do that , that pain is what defines you , but please , don t ever let him affect your rs with tisha ra she s precious and she has her problems , just deal with him alone and don t break her if she tries to fix you , make her understand that you are what you are and you don t want it to change , and yk there s that specific thought that keeps bothering me (yk what m talking abt ://) m sure we re gonna be over it very soon , i mean i don t even know if the 21 yo me will remember that or not all i can say is , keep goin , we re designed to be great