A letter from Apr 13th, 2021

Dear FutureMe, right now we’re still supposed to be in quarantine but that doesn’t stop me and my friends from going outside everyday to hangout and have fun. Right now you're getting close with a boy named Collin, who knows if you're still friends with him right now but I’m still unsure if I really like him just yet. How’s abbie doing and are you still friends with her? I'm gonna be pretty mad if we aren't still best friends.. And not to mention you used to always check up on Paige so you should do that right now if we’re still friends with her. We’re in a rough spot with our parents but I still try everyday and school is just getting harder and harder and I'm starting to lose motivation in everything that I've been doing (school related). How bout I’ll ask questions sense that’s all I ever do these days, are we still in a pandemic, is everyone in the group together still, are you happy, are you traveling, did you learn how to do cool skate trips yet, have you lived life yet, is your music taste still as good as ever. Right now as i’m writing this I’m listening to swing lynn. Sometimes I want to go back to 6 months ago and change everything, the mood and my vibe was so different and I really miss it… more like I crave it. Is Gracie still alive and are you moved out yet with Paige and Abbie. We’re supposed to go to Abbies beach house for her birthday, have you found love yet. Now I'm listening to apocalypse and it's 3:03am in the morning, it’s quiet just like I love it and I'm alone and happy, or I was until 30 seconds ago when I wrote that. I have a lot bottled up and I feel like I help so many people but nobody has tried to learn about me. It’s tuesday now and I'm still in shafter waiting for the day that I can move back to Bakersfield where I belong. Are we still crazy and fun? I have so many questions and I know your probably crying right now remembering how dumb and how easy life was when you were a kid? Just know you are loved and everything is going to be okay because we prepared for this and we knew this was gonna be hard. If we lose connection to our group, you have to text them right now and hangout at Sonic and the rope swing that we named “The pirate ship”. Now I'm listening to A soulmate that wasn’t meant to be, I thought we were fine.. I don’t need help and I don't want to talk to anyone because I like the alone feeling, I like the sadness and I like the sad music. This is off topic but you need to kick butt at school and your job, I know it’s hard but just keep pushing. I know you have no motivation but just keep going and know that I’m here for you even if you don’t remember how we were when we were younger. And last but not least check in on our family and don’t shut them out because they love you the most. I love you.