A letter from Apr 12th, 2021

Dear FutureMe, its been awhile are you alive ,its okay if your not. i would be surprised if i wasn't . I always said i would die of suicide I've always hated myself no matter what I've talk to people but none of the could help me. How could i move forward if i did see a future for me . I remember i almost ****** myself but it was a fail and i woke up the next morning. I went to school smiling telling people i had a headache no knew or would understand its been awhile but i have gotten better still no friends but i think i can move on and find people will understand me. ps: Is sassy still alive?!