A letter from Apr 11th, 2021

Dear Future Me, ☆*: .｡. .｡.:*☆ I hope life is gonna be better than now. Weeeeeeeell live your best :) I haven't been on good terms with my bestie, which is bad but anyway, don't trust anyone, people hurt me so bad.. of course you know this. I'm writing this because only you, me, would understand this. They told me by this age you'll know yourself better than anyone, but they lied. Really, who am I ? Everything I do affects you, I'm really sorry, I'm trying my best to keep everything together. I know deeply that what I did and what will do in these 5 years will be a burden to you, it always has been. Sometimes, I feel like everything I did was just a waste of time. I got in a relationship, where I got used. I thought love was about to people who complete each other and make themselves better, I tried but I ended up getting hurt. I still see him everyday, which hurts me so much, and I lie to myself saying that I got over him. my dear, will help me? All I want from you is to keep your life clean from the mistakes I made. I'm sending you without any proof that you'll stay alive :) Baby I'm just gonna disappear for now (/≧▽≦)/ bye you!