A letter from Apr 11th, 2021

Dear FutureMe, today april 11, 2021 I finished watching word of honor ep. 14 and somehow i relate on what happened to Ah Xue mag isa nalang kase siya wala na siyang kasama kaya gumawa siya ng sarili niyang sakit na gawa sa pako and he can still live for 3 years by losing his sences one by one little by little that's his way of making himself pay for his sins that he called karma but unexpectedly he met lou wen he's soulmate, lou wen is the leader of ghost valley and they're inseparable cause lou wen hobbies to stick to ah xue 24/7 that's why. But in ep.14 lou wen accidentally knew about what ah xue did to himself what kind of illness he bares and he got mad and cried they argued about that because lou wen wants to finish his revenge to start anew with ah xue while ah xue just wants to live his remaining life to stay, be with and wander the world with lou wen. I somehow relate to it that i am doing everything right now didn't care about what will it cause to my body/health i don't care anyway and thought that what if its also may happen to me if i was in his shoes? what would i do? i haven't done everything that i want to do, im making myself miserable and i know someday i will be the last one in my life that what if when I'm about to die is where someone might come for me? that right one for me? what would i do? otteokke? i might regret it and also not cause that's what i want and that's the consequences of my move. but it's just a what if, I know that there's really no one who's reserve for me they don't deserve to suffer together by me and i also don't like that. I know for a fact that maybe im just here for my parents and i already decided that when time comes and god already get their time i will be with them also cause what's the use of living without them right? so i think that's it! i hope to get this email after 5 years and i hope i already got my answer to my what if's.