A letter from Apr 9th, 2021

Dear Future Me! I this is me at 12 and today is the 9th April 2021. Things r not good rn but im a bad ***** and dont have the ***** to give out so ig im just enjoying ms w.o acc doing it. Mulle ei meeldi eesti keel niiet **** it ma kirj inglise keeles edasi:). Im currently single and w no much friends... kärolin n me b vibin but other than that i haveny talked to anyone in weeks. I havent showered in like a week and ive only done my skincare. But yanno what? ✨**** it ✨ Im a bad ***** no matter what and i have a countryside home that i wanna go to and smoke weed... I havent done if yet but i wanna do it so badly... I just wanna feel calm and chill. Also lemme know if u have a horse by then and if u have ur own stable cause Maurus, Resita and Kumberland r really sweet but ig i dont feel the happiness that id feel if theyd only be mine. Tori hobusekasvatus is currently shut down cause of covid and the norms. It honestly sucks less than i thought it wouldve. Ik its selfish but i kinda like covid ngl like all the free time and ****. My anxiety makes school a living hell but its still better than irl so ig that will do. Right now my fav colour is forest/dark sage green, fav animal prb a horse but im a cats person( i love viki doe), fav aesthetic is original 90s grunge/hippie idek and i dont have fav songs. YEASH KM SO AWKWARD IM SORRY IDK TF TO WRITE. uhhhh i like singing but the supervisioon musical is driving me nuts. Ulla ei oska absull tantse teha ja kert on lissalt veits oede so.. we have to sing the duet but he wont even look at me. he cant even most of the times sing his part. it’s annoying af but its fine. uh ig thats really it cause i dony have any ideas anymore. anyways have a great 18th bd if u havent ****** yourself yet *****