A letter from Apr 9th, 2021

Dear FutureMe, Dear Futere Scarlet It's April 9th, 2021, a Friday. You have a bunch of classes to catch up to on criminal law and your avaluations will start next Monday. I honestly don't know if you'll ever read this or if you'll even remember to check your email five years from now. Maybe you will have graduated already and maybe you are lawyer by now and maybe you really like it. Right now, I'm eighteen but you're likely 23 and I hope you're blooming. Don't forget the past but don't live in it. We both know how it tends to overcome us. I see you. I saw you now and I see you there. The trauma and struggles you've been through are foreign to me but I hope, truly, that you didn't give up. There are so much that my eighteen year old self don't know, but I bet you do. I bet you have taken that theater class already and that you learned, even if it's a bit, some guitar. Do you still like Bloody Valentine by MGK? Did you learn how to play it on the guitar as you once wanted? How's Corpse Husband songs these days? He made it big, didn't he? Bigger, I guess. Don't forget to bang your head to the jams you once loved and played over and over. I know yoire still an ARMY at your core. They saved you, you, didn't they? I know. Don't cry, I bet youre eyes are glossed over now. Mine are too. BTS is so important me, to you, to us. I know that sometimes you go over your head to that day on 2016 thinking that maybe you shouldn't have found them and you blame yoursel for still sticking around. Well.. don't. I know you have your regrets and they must have piled up since now. Just know, as you learned then, that I hear you, and they 7 hear you and heard you, and that you are ******* strong to have made it all this way! Look forward for more letters from me. Oh! I almost forgot to mention: on April 8th, at 16h20, I had my first job interview on Microsoft Teams. I don't know if I get the job, but I guess you do! Be proud no matter the outcome since it made you come this far, okay? I'm eighteen and I'm lost and you're 23 and you're lost and I love you, Scarlet. How can I not when i know you'll be me and I'm you? I'll always love you! Ps: I never kissed someone so please, if you had already DON'T fall head first! We don't want any head smacked in here, it needs to think, k? Also... don't be so hard on your feelings, because you're allowed to feel them and have someone worthy of them. Ps2: no kids yet, I beg you, I like this body too much for that. I'll talk to you soon, Your old self, that you must remember with care, Scarlet.