A letter from April 3rd, 2021

Dear Future Me, It’s 2:40 AM. A lot has happened in the past couple days. Remember Jill? Of course you do. On March 31st, you and Jill were in the bowling alley parking lot under the same umbrella. It was really cute, to be honest. We talked about future relationships, and she told me that she'd only be willing to date a friend in the future. I thought this was an odd thing to say... unless... The implication filled my stomach with butterflies. My suspicions were confirmed later that night. About this time on April Fool’s Day, Jill texted me, admitting that she had a serious crush on me, after 4 months of keeping it a secret. She did it under the guise of an April Fool's Day prank, so that if I rejected her, she would be able to salvage our friendship. I was a bit guarded at first, but she told me she was 100% serious. I was shaking from pure happiness, and told her that I liked her back. I’m writing this email because we’re texting again right now. She told me she used this website to remind herself in 5 years about me, hoping that we will still be friends. Now we're both writing one, and she said, "I am struggling so much to put into words how much I love you lol". Isn't that the cutest thing you've ever heard? We stay up late texting each other for hours. The past two nights, we've stayed up until 5 AM. Sometimes I have my doubts about the way she feels about me. She tells me how she feels straight to my face and I still find it hard to believe her. What could she possibly see in me that nobody else does? She says it's "the little things." I don't know what that means exactly, but I'm just so grateful to feel truly loved for maybe the first time in my life. I love her more than I have ever loved anyone before. She's kind, honest, sensitive, smart, talented, and hardworking. But most of all, she really cares about other people (to the point that she believes it's a fault, but I always tell her that it's a good thing). We’re both a little unsure about whether our love is romantic or platonic, but I know we feel the same way about each other. Sometimes I feel like she's the sister I never had. Other times, I feel like she's more than that. We connect so well that it almost feels like she's an extension of me. We really do understand each other. It’s very possible that this was just a case of immature teenage love, and that by the time you read this, you'll have drifted apart. As of right now, I really don’t think that’s the case. What we have feels real. We were close friends for years before she dropped this news on me. If you have drifted apart, please reach out to her right now. She is the greatest and most genuine person you will probably ever know. Let me end this with her quote: “I love you I just want to be with you, whether it's as best friends or as a couple Goodnight :)” Take care, Matt, and don't ever lose her.