A letter from April 2nd, 2021

Dear FutureMe, How do you feel today? I hope you're not as anxious as I am these days, it keeps getting out of my control and my esteem has fallen deeply low haha. But I can manage, God got my back. :) I honestly wanted to be completely honest without sugar coating things but I believe in good words so idk what to say. I can't seem to find the right words.. I'm feeling fake self love, as if I'm only trying / pretending hard to accept my guilty feelings. I know it's a condemnation and self harm but I can't stop it.. I keep hating me. I hope you love us genuinely now. I'll try my best to stop hatin me so I can love you better. Thank you for staying strong! Have a great day. <3 Love, Past you