A letter from April 2nd, 2021

Dear Future Farah, I wrote you one of these letters last year apparently, on 29 March 2020 but I think it's scheduled for 2023. Just recording this down because I'm wondering if I should write a letter every year or just every 3 years. Although, I set this one for 5 years from now. Lol. Today is 2nd April 2021. 11.23am. A lot has happened since that last email. I'm sure you remember all of it. You went through depression, you contemplated moving back home and leaving Melbourne. Then you decided you were actually leaving. After that came the crying because you were scared you had to leave Yemi behind, you were scared you were a failure for not having stuck it out and working harder to remain in Melbourne. Remember how hard life was then? You were constantly anxious, worried, stressed. You played it off well though, kudos. No one knew how horrible you felt. But leaving was a blessing in disguise. Not only did you learn about the kindheartedness of your friends and the people around you, but you also learnt that you really needed family. All your life you were always independent, and you felt you'd be okay without them, that you'd be okay with just the monthly phone calls. No, covid made you realise how terrifying it is to be alone. You used to think family was your weakness, but no, they are your strength more than they are your weakness. Ever since you returned home, your family has been your entire support system and they have been the ones to help you improve. Coming home was the best decision you made. Don't forget that. And thank god for your friends because you were able to bring Yemi back with you and share this fluffy furball's love with everyone. Anywho, enough of the past and reminding you of how strong you are and how strong you always have been (lolol). I have some expectations for you and I hope when you read this you can check the boxes and see how you've done. It's okay if you haven't achieved them all. Knowing you, you'd call yourself a failure again but no. Everything takes time. Speaking of time, did you take enough time to find out whether (ahem) "he" is the one for you? Are you with him or are you with someone else? Are you still single perhaps? Because if you are, it's okay! NO PRESSURE. If you're married, I hope you're happy and that you took time to make the right decision. Right now, you're (I am/we are) in love with him. SF, let's call him that. Wow I just said you (I/we) love him. Did you(I/we)? Do you(I/we) still? Did I just confess that I am in love with him? Okay this letter is officially driving me crazy hahahahahhaha How's work? Good? Do you like what you're doing? You've always been confused about what you really liked so hopefully you've figured a little bit of that out. What about studies? You wanted to do your Masters right? Are you working on that? Get those scholarships girl! You know you can do it. Honestly, I don't know how I should write these letters. I feel like they should be like our journal entries. A blast from the past. A reminder of how far you've come and all the hardships you've endured so you can remember your roots and remain grounded. But I also want to write these letters as if I'm addressing a friend, checking up on things and see how you're currently doing. Maybe by the next year or next 3 years, I'd have figured out how I want to word these letters. OMG DO YOU STILL STAN STRAY KIDS BECAUSE HAN JISUNG. PERIODT. That man is everything. You may love SF but Han Jisung is on another level. Oh yes of course we can never forget Hobi. Makes me wonder how BTS is doing in the future. Hm. Perhaps you're stanning another band entirely. They get younger though so, do not tell me you're stanning a band younger than Enhypen because that's as young as it gets for now. Please go to a Stray Kids concert. Please. You stanned BTS for 5 years before you went to a concert of theirs, so it should be 5 years from the day you started stanning SKZ. Please tell me you've been to at least 2 of their concerts. If you haven't yet, please meet Han Jisung and tell him how much laughter he has brought to your life. You know your delulu self thinks Han Jisung would be your soulmate if it wasn't for life's current setbacks. HAHA I wonder if SF accepts your delulu-ness. This was fun. I'm going to end this here. I'm praying that you are happy and everything you worked/are working for is fruitful and well continue to be fruitful. I pray 2021 will be a good year for me and that 2022 me can write a better email to you. Bye, and in the words of BTS, Love Yourself.