A letter from March 31st, 2021

Dear Future Me, Right now I am in the dining room table with my daughter Gianna right behind me watching me write this letter :). In 5 years from today I will hopefully still be alive and be 51 years old. My daughter will hopefully with gods grace be 18 years old. Right now we are in a pandemic and looks like its almost over, its not as bad as a year ago. Hopefully we are not zombies by the time I read this. I am hoping that I will be in good health as right now I am struggling with my iron levels being really low (7). I am also prediabetic, so I am hoping I leave all that behind me. I pray my parents are still with us as well. I do hope that I will have finally found my true love.....or will my destiny be to be FOREVER be alone, I am ok with that too. Hopefully I will have bought my own house, it has been a struggle being a single parent. I hope that I will have also accomplished everything in my TO DO LIST...one of them being dancing in the rain, going to an outside concert...Carmen I can't believe you still have not gone. SMH I also have temporary guardianship of Michael (1yo but will be 2 next month) and Gabby(2yo but will be 3 in 2 months). Their mom Ashley has fell off the wagon and has struggled to get back on the right path. We had a disagreement earlier today and basically said she would be here in 3 weeks to pick up the kids. I pray that by the time I read this letter my babies are with their loving mom and she is no longer on drugs. I hope that she will continue to let me be a part of their lives and that we have a great relationship like we used to. Gabby is nagging me right now to let her watch her show, lol Cocomelon) As for my daughter, she will be the big 18!!!! I hope that I will have made her proud....and yes we will have gone to THERAPY LOL.