A letter from March 23rd, 2021

Dear Samer, This is samer, yourself, myself, you... Me!!! Yes, this is me writing a letter for me, to read it in the future... This is crazy idea... I found this website while scrolling on Instagram... I was bored, while watching a random video on youtube about "Ibn Khaldoun", the Islamic scholar. I spend over 40 hours weekly on youtube.. this is FYI. Well, what should i write to myself now?What do i need to say to myself in the future? Wtf!!! Isn't supposed to be the other way round? I need an advice from "me from the future" actually, not from the past/present to the future. However it's ok, I'll try my best. Ok Samer, hear me out. I'm 40 years old. Still living in Sharjah and working in Dubai media city. I'm still working for OSN. It's a good thing that I'm still working and having a job now. It's been more than 1 year since the Coronavirus pandemic, people are losing their jobs every day! And we, OSN employees, are being told that we will lose our jobs soon, and being asked to find another job. Well, so far I'm not being called by HR, I'm literally waiting for my turn to be asked to leave OSN. Still surviving (didn't get caught up yet). For now, **** it anyway... It will happen one day no matter what i do about it. What else? I'm single now, no GF. Last GF i had was Erin. We're friends now. Yes! She's my first FEMALE FRIEND. It's way better actually, no drama, period. So I'm back on Tinder, trying to find a new (serious) relationship, but i think it's getting more difficult, maybe it's me. I'm not like what i used to be. I'm way different now. But maybe in a good way. I feel i have kinda inner peace now. I hope this won't change. I'm so calm and peaceful now, as calm as a ******* buddha! And i have patience. I'm really patient and I'm enjoying this feeling. Shaker is on vacation. He's in California, sending me those palm tree pictures all day! So i have more free time now. Hence I'm riding more now. Mainly solo rides because Erin and her excuses not to ride. But she's good, she just needs some time. Also, after 1 month from now i have a race in NAS. It's the yearly Ramadan race and I'm supposed to train hard and ride more nowadays. What else? I still live with my family. My mom, my sister, Laith and the kids. Lulu (Fatima) is going to the medical college in Ajman. This is her 1 year. She got vaccinated too, so she can attend classes. Ali is still doing his bachelor's degree in Civil engineering from UAQ, i wonder what he's gonna do after he graduates. The economy is very bad and getting worse. No jobs, no constructions etc.. Anyway, who knows what the future will be?! So, we'll see. At this point, i can savely say I'm an atheist but i don't really care much anymore, I'm totally a nagative atheist and apathetic too. But most importantly, I'm a nihilist (a positive one though). I think I'm understanding the big picture more and more everyday. By time, i guess. But.... YOU TELL ME NOW, samer from the future: how am i now? What am i doing for living? Still in osn!!!? Seriously? Am i married? GF? *** maybe? Asexual???!!! Am i still riding my bike? How many bikes i have? What's my profession? Am i happy? Depressed? Did i regret anything? Did i change my mind? Only time will tell i guess. I don't even know what's the point of writing this stupid pointless letter to myself in the future. So ima stop here and jerk off or maybe sleep. Goodbye Samer. PS: no matter what happens, DON'T ******* **** YOURSELF. Suicide is pointless because I'll literally be DEAD one day, so why the rush? Just hang in there, watch the leaves falling off the trees and just exist.