A letter from March 23rd, 2021

Dear FutureMe, Hi. It's 3:36 am of march 24. Di ko alam kung maaalala mo pa, pero ito yung first time mong magalit at ma-frustrate ng sobra tipong halos buong araw kang umiiyak. Isipin mo yun? Medtech ka pero di ka pinayagan ng papa mo ipractice pagiging medtech mo? Haha pathetic right? Just outright stupid. I'll fill you in in case nalimutan mo na kung bakit but i highly doubt you'll forget about what happened yesterday. So, si dean chua nag message na kailangan ng cghmc ng 15 swabbers asap tas may sweldo at hazard pay na yun + sagot kapag nag covid positive ka. A very good offer right? Pero siyempre, putanginang buhay to, di ka pinayagan haha. Bakit ka nga ba papayagan? Di ka naman medtech. Di ka naman nag aral for 6 ******* years para ipractice lahat ng inaral mo hahaha. So yun, di ka pinayagan ng magaling mong tatay for god knows what reason. Btw, ikaw lang hindi nag sign up for the job haha. Lahat sila nagkaroon ng hosp exp before grumaduate. Ikaw lang hindi dahil may pagka-gago tatay mo. Pero baka di ka rin naman talaga worthy ng good things in life kaya ayun, hanggang diyan ka lang. Oh well. Ewan ko nalang anong buhay meron ka ngayon. Pero as of now, hell ang buhay mo haha. Everything and i mean EVERYTHING is falling apart. Honestly? I can't see the light at the end of the tunnel. Maybe I'm bound to stay here forever. Well, not unless i **** myself first? Lol. Now that's a great idea. Hmm? Should I? Just to get back at them haha. I'm sorry for ranting. I'm just really frustrated right now that i can just take a knife and **** myself 5x? Should i try it? Just for fun hahaha. Anyway, i still have to wake up early. Good night.