A letter from March 22nd, 2021

Dear FutureMe, Hello! I just recived a message from 2015, the current year being 2021. I sure had high hopes for myself, some full filled, most not haha. But hey, I did get a boyfriend! I hope you and Måns are still together, but I understand if you aren't. Sometimes things just aren't meant to be. I'm still going to hope though! I hope you figured out this whole gender ordeal. Right now I'm in the middle of it; I'm closeted and not sure of anything, but I believe I am a binary Transman. I'm still working up the courage to call the genderclinic though, I hope they can help me figure it out. Whatever conclusion you come to, I'm proud of you for seeing it through. There is nothing wrong with questioning, and there's nothing wrong with being wrong. I'm struggeling alot with self hatred and depression right now, I hope you've got that a bit more under controll. My best guess for you at this point is that you went back to KTH and finished your engineering degree, but I'm not judgeing if you didn't. Who knows, maybe you even ended up pursuing philosophy! Wouldn't that be something? Oh yeah, you should go back and watch some old PhilosophyTube, Contrapoints and Shaun. Last letter I told you to go watch Cryaotic, so hopefully this ages better. I'm in a weird spot right now. I've just moved back home after me mental health seriously deteriorated in Stockholm. I feel like ****, but I'm trying. Oh and do you remember you and Måns getting super drunk and throwing up at his place with his mom and Fredrick? That was awkward lol. Maybe this is dumb, but I really, really hope you still talk to the dnd group. Jakob, Albin, Erik, Nadja and Måns, they are all very very dear to me right now. I don't know what I would do without them. We just started drawing eachother's characters too, I hope you continued with that for a while atleast, though I doubt you're still going now. I hope Måns continued drawing. I hope you're still with him. I guess most of all I hope you're happy. Also that you got more ink. Maybe even a beard, if you did end up transitioning. I hope you picked a good name, the ones I'm considering right now are Theodore, Oliver, Staffan, Benjamin, Jesper, Leo och Alexander, mainly Oliver right now. You probably remember going by Asper for a long time. Everyone in the family is safe and happy right now, dispite corona going on. Oh yeah, that's mainly why my mental health went to hell. Are you still Ace? I'm still not completely sure of that part of my identity, so it's cool if you aren't. Do you rememeber your old dnd characters? Novael, Calor, Azari, Sihirassette, Leodelle, Maverick and Etaia? Also do you still play with the trans group? I'd be kinda surprised, but pleasently so. I wonder If Elsie and Daniel are still together, and if Jessica and Per finally got married. I hope you wore a suit to the wedding. Both the birds passed away not too long ago. I don't know if you're ready to try again by now, or if you'll ever be. I miss my baby girl. I god I'm gonna cry. I think I'm gonna end this now. Listen to some Cavetown or Melanie Martinez or grandson or Barns Courtney or Falloutboy or the Crane Wives or Stealth or something. I hope you still play dnd atleast, I can't imagine you wouldn't. RIGHT! Do you still watch Criticalrole? Oh lord, are they still going? Maybe you don't have time for that kind of thing anymore. I hope you do though, I love it alot right now. Where ever you are in life, I hope you're atleast somewhat happy. I love you and you should try to do so too.