A letter from March 21st, 2021

Dear Future Me, I hope you are in a great place when you receive this. Because right now, I am really not in one. This might be my PMS talking, or the excess exam stress, but I am upset. I am feeling very low, though I am consistently trying my best to uplifting and motivating myself. I am worried. About practically everything. my studies, future. It's just me who is to be blamed. I have this feeling that I am the only negative impact in my own life. it feels so blank. I don't even remember the last time I had a heart-to-heart conversation with anyone. I cannot even understand how I created such big boundaries around me and not let any friend in. It just always feels that nobody will ever be able to understand me. all I do is sit and study and then have food, and sleep. it has been so spontaneous. I see my schoolmates making new friends in college, hanging out, dating, etc. I just cannot even find a single person who matches my thoughts and with whom I can get along. I have been crying for frustrating out for the silliest reason. I hope this is just a phase, and I get over it soon. But, on a positive note, I am trying to stay positive and I have started practicing Gratitude and affirmations. I am starting to work on my goals while keeping my belief in the Law of Attraction. I hope all give out my desirable results and I grow to become more confident and make my parents and myself proud.