A letter from March 20th, 2021

Dear FutureMe, hellooo esmeralda :) how are you ? right now i am 15yrs old in 9th grade and it is saturday march 20, 2021! i’m pretty sure that you’ll still have that craving to live in france or italy? are you an actress and a model yet?!? my relationship with my mom is not at all good. we don’t get along at all and i’m planning on never talking to her ever again once i turn 18. She literally has told me i’m useless and lazy and all i do is be on my phone. And that the dreams that i have are dumb and not going do it ect...Oh and she has literally hit me many many times(even with a crutch) that’s physical and mental abuse. If anyone in my future life thinks i’m in the wrong i’m going to cut them of because after all she’s done to me?!? yeah no goodbye.My relationship with my brother is not good either he’s wayyy too stubborn and has a lotttt of an ego. Not to mention the many many times he tries to put me down lmaoo it’s funny how he thinks he has power over me and how he thinks his words hurt, how sad lol. i never took him assaults to heart, i think it’s funny how he thinks he’s hurting me. i haven’t really been talking to viri or monica because we’re sort of in a fight right now but we talk here and then. I have good grades though, straight A’s all %100 :) i don’t olán on going to college. i feel like it’s a waste of time and money. i don’t want to be in debt and having to constantly worry about finishing that loan or something. However, i might go to get an english degree in literature. That is still a maybye i’m not too sure yet. I really love myself and am still trying to become a better person more and more everyday. I read a quote once that said “to seek a better life you must first seek to be a better person” or something like that lol. I also really want to get in touch with my spirit guides but i haven’t been able to. I have soo many questions for them and really want to meet them! My favorite anime right now is “darling in the franxxx” it’s really amazing and i can’t wait for the next season!! Also for the miraculous tales of ladybug and chat noir and their movie!! I live with my grandma with my mom and brother and cousins and aunties and uncles still, i mean of course i’m 15 where else can i go lol. I love flowers sooo much like just at them gosh so beautiful! i really want a little baby kitten!!! i rally hope that i get one soon, i want a boy cat because i don’t want to deal with girl cats periods! it said on google that it lasts like 2 weeks! and i’m not trying to be constantly doing that for 2 weeks :/ sorry lmao. We’re still in quarantine it’s been a year i believe and i haven’t been to my high school yet with all of the people yk ? i have been to lps but for picture day and i didn’t see anyone in my advisory or anyone in any of my classes(i think i’m not sure how everyone looks like). Also, i disabled my instagram account so no one would txt me from that school because i didn’t want any friends :) But i did make another one and only have a little bit of people there lol but i berely even use it. I am sooooo happy!!! i love having nobody bothering me😄(having no friends is really the best). Well i’m sure that’s it and if i did forget something then woops(i love macaroons, and have you met your soulmate yet?). Well goodbye and i’m sorry for everything until now. I hope that you’re still happy and that you still live yourself as much as i do right now or more :) Yours truly, Esmeralda Hernandez