A letter from March 17th, 2021

Dear FutureMe, Dear Nandini. It feels weird to write a letter using my first name.. I never even used my first name even while I have talks with myself in my head. I am not in a bad position in my current life I guess, although I know I could have done a lot better if only I didn't procrastinated and only if luck favoured me. I sound bitter and I am always critical about myself, frankly speaking I didn't even hope for anything, I have zero expectations. I didn't even wanted to write this letter to the future me, because I have this fear that it may upset you... But I am writing this letter to you to because currently I came across a post In ig this afternoon that says me to imagine a 5 year old version of me and if I would be able to hurt her and be critical of her.. and of course I wouldn't be able to. And this evening I got this website of writing a future letter to myself and I am taking it as a sign. There are all this tiny wishes I have and I know that if I stopped procrastinating, I may be closer to my wishes. I am aiming to do that daily. If I have achieved that in future and you are in a better position, congratulations - we kinda made it! Time for new goals and in case we haven't made it... I won't say it's a failure and you also don't consider it as a failure! You are in transition, in the process!! Just get up and grind. You will do it! From someone who is trying to be kind to themselves..