I love you

hello my darling, you little piece of cake, I am so excited to meet with you. Aahhhh, I hope you are doing all well with your health both physically and mentally. This feels surreal. I am here in my birthday and writing to you from your past. I am so exciteddddd. Okay, I think I need to confess everything I can. Today is my birthday and I am on my 20s officially and I don't really know whether I should be happy or sad about it. Former one sounds like a good idea. I have my exams in 4 days and am feeling a bit anxious about that. Things don't feel good. What if I fail? I haven't studied much and am distracted heavily by the social media thing and am willing to get over those stuffs but am not really able to. It has become my addiction. I feel like I have accomplished nothing in my life and I fear the future. I don't know whether I will have my breaths left to read it out but I have a hope. I feel like I am about to enter a storm as everything seems so gloomy. I am at the same time positive about life. You know I will be just living it and am totally looking forward to make as many stories as I can. You know, now I am not gonna think like I will have it perfect and all, It's just that I will be living fully and completely express what I feel. The expectation I have with my older self is to be brave and fearless like a warrior and not be the victim of anything. I just hope this person I am becoming is inspiring for her bravery. I don't want it to be rich and famous but be content and happy. I hope you be surrounded with some real people and grow everyday. The place where there is not hate feelings and negativity and everyone is helping out every other person there. I hope you become able to be the cause of that positive environment. I honestly hope I can take you as an inspiration. talking about me, I am a naive kid who is pro at procrastination and I know I am making my life hell with all that ****. Now, I will be catching up with some tiny little things which maybe will help you to be you. I really hope that you be part of this global community and live your life in your terms. I still can live my life in my own terms but I really lack actions and that really sucks. So, I hope I can help you in your birth. This is for you that I am gonna go morning jogs now and eat healthy and fulfill the promise I made in the 1st of January. I promise to you I will nourish you. I am your birth-giver and I really don't want any complications to this. I really can visualize that little kid running down to road for a heavy and compassionate to the future me. That little kid is me. I really be looking forward to this. Know that I love you and will do anything possible to see you there, right after 5 years. I love you I love you and I love you the most. I won't let you down. Your naive kiddo who want to hug you tight, really really tight.