A letter from March 7th, 2021

Dear kyle, today was a verybad day and that this is the time u were supposed to hurt urself but i will think about it do u remember when mom's favorite was the both of my/ur sibling? where yanna accused u that u are the one who started you oull her hair but it was she who did it and that u hope that they would die i have thought today that no one cares about me whenever they care it's like there forcing me to do something and when they talk they are like so mad no one ever had a favourite that is me they treat u like trash they treat u that u are left alone and trying to fit in they have been so unfair to me they even forgot to give me gift and on my birthday this January it doesn't seem as happy like it's so dry and uncolorful, i don't even imagine myself living long i hope things will get better soon but i always say that and it keeps getting worse i wish i could reach my goal and slap my money on their faces i even more value my friends than my family because they were their in my ups and downs and my family don't understands me i try to tell to dad things but he's just leaving it and sometimes i mean all the time he doesn't reply to my text about whats happening he said he's on work butits been a week and he still hasn't reply back and mom is like forcing me to go here in manila and i don't know how to tell them that i don't want tobe with them cause they broke my heart in such a young age and if i laugh alone they would say i am crazy and i need to go to the mental but the truth is i imagined myself being happy in the future and they say that i should stop acting like that and that my cousins don't do that anymore y not? They are the reason y i donhave a happy childhood and now they're complaining about me happy sometimes i just crys and saying to them that i just feel like crying but that isn't the reason and when u cry u are always facing the mirror because that's the only thing that can comfort u u only have urself that's y u talk yo urself because u don't make decisions ny urself like u think about it that's all i think i will text more soon cause y not i wanted to put my emotions kr happy or sad or something else in here so bye i hope ur doing great