A letter from March 5th, 2021

Dear FutureMe, Are you still alive? If yes I hop you are able to step out off your comfort-zone now working in ICA kassa tex or in postnord, do you look the way I want to look in the future? Have you learned the things you wanted to learn, are you able to speak English fluently? Have you started your own platform on social media? I think you are almost 23 by now, you are in your early 20se, is it hard to work? What are you jealous of right now, did the things that make you upset change? Do you feel the outsider in your place? Do you have long hair? What cup size are you? What are your worries? Right now I’m worried about my NP PM SVA3 and the APL and what if I don’t find any job that suits me or if I will get kicked out because I’m not good enough for the job, I’m concerned about my Swedish language, I am thinking what if my language never improves and this will give me hard time here in Sweden. By your age I want to be able to speak English and Swedish fluently and it will get easier for me to interact with other people in those languages, I want to be better in my hobbies, I am actually worrieng soo much about getting sick I don’t really know why but just the feeling of me not being able to live my life probably because of a sickness makes my anxieties and I don’t know how to deal with this way of thinking, I hope you are able to deal with it now. I am worried about losing a family member specially my dad, if he died before we are able to serve our self it’s gonna be soo hard for us and my mom, she is going to be so stressed out and she already is. Ya allah make them live longer and give the health and wellbeing so they can provide for us as long we are capable of doing it by ourselves , Amen 🙏. I want all my family members and me to practice Islam in a good way that god will like and we accept the Islam in our hearts without forcing it into it, Amen 🙏. By that time I want to have a really really big family event that bring all our family members across the country’s together in one place and have a really good time together inshallah, Amen 🙏. I want to start reading books but I’m not doing it because of the thought that I am just doing it to brag about it, not to learn from it, I hope that this have changed in your time right now. Do you have a crush on anyone right now 😉? How does he look like 👀? Are you studying by the way ohh I forgot to ask that question😆, if yes What are you studying? Is it animation? Have you started you own YouTube channel? Are you good with travelling by your self? Because just thinking of me travelling by myself make me anxious because I am not good in foreign languages and I am afraid of meeting new people and have interact with them, I want to go to China an japan and Korea and Indonesia and other countries by my self or with someone, I hope you are able to do that now. How many chapters have you memorised of the Quran, 10 or more? I hope that you are still reading and memorising the Quran. Watching dramas makes me feel so lonely, I want to be more stronger against the influencing of dramas and be able to watch it without me digging deeper into it. Are you afraid of racism? Because I am afraid of it, I am worried that it will affect my life in a negative way in the future, I don’t know if I’m strong enough to stand up for myself against it, but inshallah I will be able to. Do you have Boyfriend? If yes be strong an able to control your self because you are already doing something wrong so if you weren’t strong enough the shaitan will make the haram feels good for you, it feels good I know but remember that this is not what god and you wants. Are you able to deal with you PMS now? Because I don’t really feel well when I’m on it, everything drop inside of me, my confidence blah blah blah... . What style do you like to wear ? Because right now I’m very obsessed with the pastelly colours, are you still wearing it? Can you afford bying the clothes that you like? Do you wear the halal nail polish? Is it in your weekly routine right now? Do you have friends? How do you hangout with? Are you still living in Sweden or have you moved out somewhere else? Did you get a new phone? What type is it? The think there is more questions I want to ask but I think this is enough for you, see you in 2026 👋🏾 Bye.