A letter from March 1st, 2021

Hey, I'm not fine. It hurts. My heart hurts and I can't do anything about it. Every breath that I take makes my heart tighten even more. I want to give up. I'm so tired of fighting. Why am I still here? Why didn't the universe take my life? I don't have a single day of rest and now I'm so fcking exhausted. Sometimes, when I stop breathing, this pain disappears for a short time but it comes back as soon as I take a breath. Please, tell me you're not feeling that way anymore, tell me that I did it and that I'm finally happy. I don't want to feel this way until the end of my life. I'm so tired, I just want to sleep forever.