A letter from February 27th, 2021

Dear FutureMe, I'm starting a new thirty day writing challenge. If I succeed then you should be getting a new letter every day for thirty days starting today. Each day has a prompt. Today's prompt is: describe your personality. I wouldn't know where to begin, which might allude to aspects of my personality already. I am scattered, a big mix of everything. Bits and pieces from here and there, my brain is like a thrift shop. I'm not sure where it comes from that I am so chaotic, maybe its the lack of roots I have. Who am I kidding, ofc its that. Thats usually where I can trace all my problems back to. I would say I'm also very in touch with my emotions, unlike many others, I feel my feelings. I sit with them, I try to understand them, and I try to move past them. I'm not sure this counts as personality, but it definitely makes me a very empathetic person. I'm also proud of my strength, I hold my ground and stand for what I believe in. In open to new things, but more and more I see myself angry with change. Its difficult not having any stability. One thing I definitely need to work on is stonewalling. If someone crosses a line, I shut down, I build walls, I do everything in my power not to let them in... and to let them feel it. I don't think this is constructive at all and I'm trying to kick the habit. Its difficult for me to be vulnerable. That's something I can only do with my sister. I'd say a big part of my personality is also that I don't place much value on comfort. I think its ok to be uncomfortable in life sometimes, thats how we grow. This way of thinking has brought me a lot of pain in the last couple of months. Anyways, thats how I would describe my personality. Has it changed much, do you remember what I was like?