A letter from February 27th, 2021

Dear FutureMe, I hope you are doing well. Today is February 26, 2021. I am writing this letter at 11:04PM. It is a Friday. Right now, I'm listening to my 2020 Spotify playlist. If By Chance by Ruth B is playing. Maybe you should listen to that to reconjure the memories (if you will even remember typing this). I hope you tried to grow your thrifting business, or at least got a little fun and knowledge out of it. By now, you should have graduated from college. Hopefully with Regents or maybe even Honors? Probably not Honors. Right now I am 90% sure I will be quitting it because that thesis project? Not it. I wonder what your major will end up being. Right now I am planning on Biosci with a minor in Management. My career goals = veterinarian and side hustle = bakery for dogs. Speaking of dogs, I hope Leia is doing well. I hope you didn't abandon her. She loves you a lot and I love her a lot. If you did leave her behind, do your past self (me) a favor and go see her!! Bye this Ruth B song is making me emotional. I just teared up a little bit. I'm scared of growing up. I hope our entire family is doing well. How is mom? Is she still a ball of stress? I hope she is happier now, and maybe Leia is keeping her company. 5 years is a long time from now. I hope dad is staying healthy and keeping out of trouble. I hope Andy and Jenae are doing well too. Right now they are planning on moving to LA together, so maybe they will be married/engaged in 5 years! Kevin and Ellie better have a kid in 5 years too!! I want to be an auntie already. They would be such great parents. Also, Kaya!!!! I hope Kaya and Leia were able to become friends. A few days ago Kaya bit Leia in the face, but she's doing okay. It sucks that they're not friends right now. And you. I hope you are doing well. I hope you aren't dealing with any anxiety or depression. You are strong and you've been through a lot. Things may seem so difficult at times but you have to remember it's all temporary. Do you have a boo??? Please don't tell me you still have a crush on you-know-whoE. I hope you found yourself a nice boyfriend at UCI. Make sure he doesn't treat you bad!! Remember to have high expectations. You are worth so much more and you deserve the world, no matter how you feel about yourself. Also, have you done any internships? You need internships to get a kickstart in your career!! OMG! Did you apply to medical/vet school? I wonder how that's going! Today I was stressed about writing Essay 4 for HumCore with Buhanan. I hate Surrealist art. I hate writing about art. I hate writing in general. I don't know where I will be in 5 years, but I know for sure writing about a whole bunch of nonsense will have nothing to do with it. Did you pass HumCore? I hope you got a job in the summer. I want to get a job in the summer, but mom is iffy about it because of COVID. When did COVID end? Did you get the vaccine? I'm asking so many questions. I honestly never thought I would live past 18. LIke I knew I would, but it was hard to picture myself. I don't know how to explain it. Only recently have I actually been able to picture myself in the future. I think that is a good sign about what the future holds for me. For now, I will just keep living life day by day. Make sure you check your snap memories! I left you a special message there too. I will try to snap every single day to capture as many memories as I can. For now, I guess it's farewell. See you in 5 years future me. Love, Past you. Crystal. :)