A letter from February 26th, 2021

Dear FutureMe, Do I still hide my pain or am I getting terapy? Did I change my pronouns? Am I finally having a gf/bf? I hope you're not cutting yourself or willing to die still... I really hope I am ok there in the future bcs now I am 12 and I literally feel like I don't belong in my own f*cking room and literally in my body :/ I am sorry for cursing but today,26 February,I feel like sh*t even tho it was a great day. Idk why but I never smile anymore,I can't even laugh.. I hope I atleast get terapy now :)