hey adult me (A letter from February 26th, 2021)

Dear FutureMe, Heyyyy, it's 15-year-old you haha. I like coming here to read some public letters from time to time, so I wanted to write one myself. I am currently at home most of the time, due to the pandemic and stuff. Pretty sure you'll never forget that time of your life so I don't think I have to go over it. Anyway, I've been doing online school (of course). It's gonna be that way for the rest of the schoolyear lolz. I have History and Civics this quad. Not the biggest fan of either, but you know whatever. We're currently learning about WWI and Canada's involvement in it. Am I probably gonna forget most of the content of this class after it's over? Probably. You tell me future self. I have not once seen my Civics' teacher's face cuz he says someone took a pic of him this year and posted it on social media... My History teacher on the other hand is pretty enthusiastic and she uses a lotta vids but I just think the subject's not for me. Ummm... I've been exercising pretty regularly this past month. I try to get at least 10 minutes of exercise daily. I recently found the FitBit my brother gave me for my b-day and it was in my jacket pocket all along. I'm thinking about signing up for summer jobs. I meannn I've got nothing to rlly lose. It's unlikely that we'll travel this year since borders are closed so making some money seems like a good idea. Did you end up getting one? I think I'll just go for it since we don't want no missed opportunities or regret. The application deadline is March 15, 2021. I have 'temporarily disabled' Insta and deleted my Snap/TikTok apps and honestly I strongly recommend my dudes. I don't think we realize how toxic those platforms rlly are. Does TikTok exist? Is it still popular? I've been watching this girl who was in my class on there thru my laptop. She posts self-improvement stuff and she's growing so much. She has like over 60k followers now!! But I mean she deserves it and I'm proud of her. Where is she now?? Also, I have a strong feeling there's at least a handful of teens in my neighbourhood but there's no way for me to know when everyone's cooped up in their house. I sure hope you made neighbourhood friends at some point. One of my biggest goals hehe. Have you decided what you wanna become? At the moment, I kinda see myself going into the psychology field cuz I rlly like working with humans and learning about human mind/behaviour. Mom wants me to become a doctor of course. Idek tbh. I have been kinda distant from my friends. Just occasionally reaching out since I'm tryna work on myself. I especially talk to Leyre. Have any of your friendships lasted? Did you make new friends? Do you have a best friend? Oh yeah, did you renovate your room to look the way you want it? I'm envisioning a more planty typa vibe tbh. What else should I tell you? Mo is still shorter than me and has a high-pitched voice, which probably won't be the case in a few years. My bros are currently 12 and 8 years old. My parents are 53 and 47. Their relationship has been okay. Wish I were closer with papa. The weather is beginning to seem like spring. We've been sledding quite a few times at Malden within the past month. This year was literally our first year trying it!! Turns out winter is actually pretty fun if you choose to take advantage of it. I really really wanna learn to ice skate badly. I've been writing in a gratitude journal and repeating affirmations to improve my mindset. A few days ago, I decided to start writing a poem a day cuz why not. Nothing too serious just whatever comes to mind and I've been posting them on this site called allpoetry.com. It's pretty fun. I also wanna start working on art more often and making sure to read. My goal this year is to read 100 books. Dk if it's realistic but I'm trying anyway. Of course, we have a library book that's a month late and we still haven't found it...we have to pay $10 in fees so far :)). I tried this avocado macaroni mix I found on Pinterest and I honestly had high hopes but it turned out SO EFFING BLAND. Never again. Since I don't know what else to say, here's some stuff about the current you: - I rlly want to go to Goodwill to thrift some stuff and maybe find a poetry book - I have 4 plants but they're dying on me (except for the cactus) - I've been going on walks on my street and it's pretty cool, especially when I'm wearing a fit that makes me feel good. - I feel like there isn't enough time in a day to accomplish all I want to do. - Probably over 9 hours of my day is spent in front of my laptop screen (better than on my phone I guess) - I have been sleeping before 1-2am and waking up at least at 7am. - Procrastination habit improving a little. - Still no fav. colour - I really want a pet cat or any pet for that matter - Kinda wanna learn to skateboard - I'm a bit tired of regular outfits, thinking about just wearing out-of-pocket **** nobody would rlly choose to ever wear cuz who cares. - Want to live in a cottage - I've been "tutoring" (actually just watching an adult dude helping the kid) every Thursday from 5-6pm. The hour drags but at least it gets me community service hours. - Actually feeling pretty good. Don't miss much for the first time and satisfied. But maybe seeing humans my age soon would be a beneficial thing. - Almost 1 year corona anniversary. - Fav movie: The Notebook - Fav show: The End of the Effing World - I participate a lot in class - I like biking and reading - I'm very tired right now Before I go, I'll list some of this year's goals to see if they were accomplished: Become fluent in Spanish Write a story (maybe a picture book) Create a time capsule Make a scrapbook Film a YouTube vid Befriend a stranger Learn to cook Learn to knit or crochet Read 100 books Fix posture Finish volunteer hours Get a job Renovate room Learn fast typing Be confident/kind Wear fancy dress to ordinary place (this. is . questionable. but. i. really. wanna.) Smile and say hi to strangers (actually did it for first time few days ago) Memorize all countries Go a week without tech Write 10 ideas/day Maybe start business?? Oh yeah also, this Sat I wanna go out with Mo and just walk around wherever we want around the city before arabic school. It seems like it would be so much funnnn. Hope ur doing well future me and living ur life to the fullest. Love you and am proud of how far you've come. Pondering if I have the capacity to go brush my teeth and wash my face rn. Carpe Diem (as my apparently criminal teacher once said) and see you in a few years :) Rym finished at 12:34am