A letter from February 24th, 2021

Dear zaine, as i write this letter,i am currently in pain. nobody understands me,everyone hates me and i know,even though they dont say it—they're disappointed in me. if you receive this letter,it means you managed to live past 20,and i am so proud of you. i know those are the words that you really wanted to hear. it sucks that whenever you try to share your feelings to them,all they do is invalidate it and make you feel like you're not doing anything to stop your pain. you've always been the unlucky middle child,the black sheep—the one forgotten more than once. the family is better off without you. you'll always be an excess baggage that no one wants. you wanna know a fact? if you die,everyone will appreciate you HAHAHA. you want appreciation right? but it'll only last for a few months though as you are not the type to be remembered. and geanne,ohhh geanne HAHHAHAA . your lovely girlfriend that stood by your side the whole time—even she doesn't understand you. she never will,because you're a confusing waste of time. she probably left you right now. but oh well,such a perfect girl doesn't deserve a worthless being like you. if you are happy and contented right now,good for you. this letter means no ill—or whatever rhe ****. i wrote this letter to remind you how strong you are right now; you we're in this dark,lonely place five years ago but look at you right now alive and kicking. its okay if you're still struggling today,you are doing your best and i am proud of you. ciao♡