A letter from February 24th, 2021

Hi, It's past you. I just turned 13 ( it's 23th february ) I really hope you are reading it because that means I am alive. I don't know if you remember writing it, but I am lying in bed it's 11pm, My mum is crying becouse of me rigth now, I don't really know if becouse of me or my father but probably me. I came downstairs and my father stoped the movie their were watching sigh and started compleing that they can't rest. I wanted just to grab something to eat. when I heard that I turned back and started going upstairs when I was almost in my room I sigh just like my dad and closed the door, and then my mom walked in crying and ask if I wanted something. I said that I'm fine thx. I don't know what to think about it I just fell like I am one huge disapointment. Hope You don't fell like it. I wanna ask if you're alright? Please say that you are moving out of parents house because I hate it. Can u describe yourself? Did u tell parents about Your *********? Do you have someone You trust, friend / girlfriend / boyfriend? Do you still have that pendrive I am writing things on? Video I recored about myself is on that pendrive named ,,To my future self" please record yours when you get that email. I hope You are doing well, please stay alive for me ( and by alive I mean alive outside and inside I don't want to just exist ). See you in five years. Your younger self. Love you.