A letter from February 23rd, 2021

Dear FutureMe, Been in the new job for 12 months now, been working from home for 11 1/2 months. Went into a bit of a hole over Christmas but I realise now that's an annual thing. From November to January I typically can't get things together, in complete contrast to when I used to make presents, toys, decorations and send dozens of cards. I just can't seem to get it together and in a pandemic year it was worse than ever. I think it's the lack of daylight, I kind of go into a torpor. Can't seem to get myself motivated, it's a constant state of self-sabotage, like I want things to very nearly go wrong just so that I can feel something. Why can't I do what I used to do and get that stimulation from more positive pursuits? I need to get off my backside and do stuff again. I get so tired and yet for no reason. I look forward to the weekend, but why, it's no different to the week.