A letter from February 20th, 2021

Dear FutureMe, Hey mory, (remember your nickname is Mory) but hey. Melissa told you about this so now you're doing it. You are listening to https://youtu.be/B3BkLjzb354 while you do this so yea. You are a huge *** weeb you just bought a journal to use for an anime journal like what the heck lmaoooo, even when you know mom hates anime because its like demonic or something but idk she and I will never see things the same. Church and God is hard for you cuz your family is a mess and your dad never changes. he act like a mental child and you see no glory happening in your life and you fear ***** like a ***** you have huge anxiety/panic attacks if you think about it too much cuz you know you live in sin but still fear eternity and what you don't know and don't know if you even believe in god because life is so strange but lets stop talking about that cuz I can feel fear starting. N E WAYZ banana fish broke you, attack on titan final season is crazy, you hate college and are paying for it by yourself because youre too scared to tell mom you lost the scholarship and lets not even get into how you aren't even sure what you want to be. I mean work with animals right? but is that really for me ? im a lazy *** **** who has zero ambition so idk man. also you're not *** or bi but anime women hit different I wish I was Hanje. You don't have a crush on anyone cuz men are dumb and anime men are so hot you currently have 60 of them on your simp list so wow! I hope you learn to love yourself tho and maybe lose some weight or just live bit more healthy. You miss fluffy he was a good dog. You turn 19 soon and man do you hate it. Will mom still control my life when I read this again?I can't even watch anime if she's around cuz I don't wanna deal with that and you can't say no to her and I go to church when I don't want to but I mean mom controls me cuz im the only one she can hold down. Hopefully you got through community college you're supposed to graduate spring 2023, and maybe fo to university maybe Unity college in Maine? Wildlife rehab, covid sucks *** yo, how did covid recover in these 5 years? can you please be for real about learning new languages pls! and travel please learn to be happy do what you want even of mom will hate it, live your life and idk about god its weird for me but try to work on it. learn about stars and ****, I hope you read more books. did you go to Mexico yet??also don't have kid they cost too much money and time and it would suck to raise them in this world :/ you adore llamas did you ever get a valentines day llama and name it Venus? how's the romance anime going? You chose an English major in creative writing how QUIRKY how did that go? you'll be 23 when you read this geez, old *** *****. the password to your first journal that os blue with stars is 613 sugawara koushis birthday what a SIMP but you love it. you work at tjmax and forget about kohls they all hoes, expect Julie, she was the best. You miss Becca ( Bradlee) but he voted trump and maybe it was dumb to fight over that and lose the friendship but I mean really? and what good were you to him anymore, let him be happy with his gf, you could never return his feelings that he had for you so you just stuck with best friend. I miss him but maybe it was for the best it was harder and harder to keep in touch anymore. I hope you learn to be more confident and find some sort of stability in what you want for your future. You love anime and anime men, and books, and chocolate and the shamrock shake, and the color yellow and rainy days and you can drive on the freeway even tho they failed your driving test but who cares. And you hope to travel the world. I love you Maryana.