A letter from February 18th, 2021

Dear FutureMe, Hi there, it's me again. And just like always it's late at night and I'm crying. Why? Well I just realized if all my grandparents won't accept me, I'll ruin everything. I don't know what mom and dad would do if they don't accept me. I don't want that anything changes between them, they are still their parents and I'm their daughter. If it did change their relationship, I will never forgive myself Birthdays are going to be so awkward. If they don't accept me, will ever be able to hug them again, they will never look at me the same, do they think I'm sick and that I need therapy. I don't know, I do know that I'm not sick. This is who I am. I can't change it, even though I sometimes want to. I accept myself now (that took a long time) but now It's only going to be harder. Coming out... I'm so scared, I shouldn't be, or should I? I just want this to be over. I want to know who I am. I want to be myself. I don't want to be afraid anymore. I really hope that you (future me) is happy, and that everything is okay, and if it's not, it is going to be. I hope you came out and that many people accept you. Take care x Britt (past you)