A letter from February 18th, 2021

Hi *******! five years from now,youre like what twenty four?twenty five. You're ******* old man. Excuse the langauge (like you give a ****),I've had this terrible headache the entire **** day. By now you should really have fixed that,also are you wearing glasses like a disabled person now because that's where i figure these headaches come from. All im concerned about is if they look good or at least make you look smart because we cant be having a lense on your face that makes the entire world beautiful while transforming you into Princess Fiona after her marriage to Shrek. Speaking of Shreks I'm still thinking im desperately in love with short stack...i have a sneaking suspicion he does not like being called short, might as well save him in my phone as lord Farquad lol to continue my tyrrany.* Enter maniacal laughter* If we are still desperately in love with lord Farquad then coodos kid...oh right im the kid!, not too bad though im turning a terrifying nineteen! can you believe it! that's another thing about this letter, i'm hoping we make it to five years from now, because i'am drained of all hope here. The future has never looked so bleak and undesirable. Any **** who, if youre reading this then weve finally managed to create what we want or we just ******* survived which i wont lie is still quite the achievement with how me..now,is actually quite suicidal. By now you have no excuse to be anything than the person in my head even with all the pain. Also I'm banking on you to see a **** therapist but avoid any meds we make it out of this sane. We really need to work past all the self directed hate and fueled anger at the wolrd,its great for momentum but terrible for any and all relationships you may have. Thats another thing, im still here in the bad place so i support the delusion that i would rather not have any and all kinds of social interactions at all,... you don't. You can not give life a chance and continue running. I have not yet reached the point where i genuinely want a life yet but five years from now,i expect a revolution. Might even be saved by the Church lol. Not saying thats dumb if thats who you are now........no judgement. Actually quite a bit of it lmao. Also Short stack thinks this us having no kids is a lie... call him up and tell him we still dont want no **** kids or shackles of doom called marriage. And then i wonder why ill never find love without the catch.... the yiu are not worthy catch. Jesus i just depressed myself. Lovely. Also i cannot be making all this ******* effort to not get a response you better reply and on time! so heres a list of stuff i wanna know as is with anyone who is able to talk to their future self; kgm kgm are you guys still in love? if not,someone else?someone i know??...please don't say yes got that dream apartment?? paid in dollars?if not then i don't know wtf are you doing with life finally a master of the internet?milking it for money yet? whats your car? if there is a car......ill settle for a Tesla but if not then at least have one its imperative that i don't get a whiff of broke ***** have we done the dream?....book tour ready?......kinda unlikely but what the hell Hows family? and i'm not talking about my uncles may they rest in hell oh Whos alive and whos not? got Kovu yet?? all of this is really where im setting the bar for one very important question Bells..... are you finally happy?