A letter from February 17th, 2021

Dear FutureMe, So today was interesting day.. Just wanted to share this to myslef becz I have no one else to share it with.. What a friendless loser I am eh?. Anyways. Today was the first day of S7 exam at MEA Perinthlmanna.. The college was filled with lot of muslim girls, all are pretty.. And I just can't but hate myself for the last four years of what? A waste.. I am a ******* loser and don't have anything worthwile in his btech life.. Girls are important of clg life. So seeing all these pretty muslim girls made me jealous. So after cmplting my exam, I was standing outside the exam room. Next to it is a lab and some students are there. After a while students started to leave and I took a peak here and there. And finally one girl came outside that lab and walked past me. The moment I saw her face I was in awe.. She wore a mask yet still.. She had one of the most beautiful face I've seen.. And also after making eyecontact usually me or other break it.. But when I made contact with her, she didn't look away, she kept watching me in that minuscule of time until I had to break eyecontact to not act like a creep. It was a short seconds but she didn't look away.. I dont have any explanation for that. Maybe I am ******* ugly so she felt sorry for me. She didn't look away becz she was surprised at the abomination infront of her.. I dont know.. Anyway she was beautiful.. Short.. Small face.. She was using her phone.. Her fiance chatting maybe? ****.. So I tried to watch her when I too left.. She was standing in the otherside of ground floor and I couldn't get better look.. Still, from that moment when leaving lab and the moment I desperately tried to get better looks at her while I was leaving, she was alone.. Thats what most surprised me.. Because a girl as beautiful as that walking alone.. The group of boys or girls came before her left her alone ? Nobody wanted to keep her company.. Or the students in the lab don't know each other? I am perplexed. Still she was alone using phone.. A girl as beautiful as that.. Who made eye contact with me and didn't look away.. Hours later and I can't get her off my head.. I know I am a simp but I want to believe this case is special.. I maybe never gonna see her again.. Still I want to cherish that little seconds I had.. I don't remember her face correctly but I just know that she is beautiful. Those small eyes of her looking at me.. After all the things I have done, beautiful moments like makes me wonder how can I ever experience something like this? I am a ******* ugly friendless loser who mental issues and ******** frustrated. Whoever that girl, may she has a good life and I want to thank her for that moment. The guy who marries her is one lucky guy.. Thank you dear. So I don't wanna forget this and I am gonna send this to multiple timelines I guess. Once again.. Thank you beautiful angel.. For being there at that time and made a special moment for me. I know you don't even remember an instance or nobody like me, but you made that nobody's day better.. I do wanna see you again next exam.. But chances are pretty rare since your classes maybe over by that time. But thank you.