A letter from February 17th, 2021

Dear FutureMe, It is now 1 AM. 18th of February, 2021. It's almost 2nd sem and I feel very burnt out. I don't know where to start. I have many school works that I still need to accomplish before March and I also need rest. I want to cry, I want o talk to JC but he deactivated his account probably because I didn't tell him what I think about the song he recommends to me. I really hope I get to finish all of these before march so I can rest just for days. Mama told me to pursue BS in Accounting instead of BS in Business Administration because it is not a professional job (doesn't have board exams). I got a little sad but I think she knows better so I'm just gonna follow that. I'll send this 5 years from now. That'll be the year 2026 and hopefully, I already finished college or will finish it soon. I think I am 21 or 22 years old by that time already. I am totally confused right now. School, classmates, workloads, financial needs. All of them bother me. I hope and pray that I get through this. I hope that the future me will be stronger enough and is a better version of who I am right now. Dreams change, I don't know if the desires and the dreams I have right now are the dreams that I will have in the next few years. Take care of yourself. Rest if you need to. Cherish every moment, please. I don't even know if I'll make it to next year but I will be sending this still. Your 16-year-old version.