A letter from February 17th, 2021

Dear FutureMe, Dear FutureElias, I hope you are doing ok. Things have been rough lately. I wish i could live with dad and gemma instead of mam and col. I hate living here. Mam is so demanding and lazy. She calls me a lazy fat cow sometimes. And then she tells my dad not to call me a Cow!? As if thats worse then calling me a fat lazy cow and selfish. Literally. I also i have a crush on milo at the moment i have for about 3 months now. But they have a boyfriend. Kolby. I hate him so much. For **** sake. Everytime milo even mentions his name i feel like ******* stabbing myself in the chest a thousand times. Honestly. Mam always says i always have to have the last word in every conversation. Even though I'm only trying to tell her something. She also says i talkback and argue alot when there is no need. But im only trying to tell her i didnt do something. Istg dad abd femma r way calmer then mam and col. Honestly. They actually listen to me and let me express myself. But mam and col dont even listen to what i have to say most of the time. I hate it. Mam is also so unpatient. Sorry if i keep going on about how **** my life is rn. Ill tell you about some of the good things happening rn. Eden is going to be born in april only 2 months. But i really hope she doesnt come out like a demon baby like ******* Eve. And i hope she doesnt have autism and ashd like eve. Anyways, riley and lennox are outside on my trampoline right now. Another good thing is my birthday is coming up in 3 monthsm im going ro have a sleepover with milo and seth. We are going to be listening to kpop n ****. Im also having a party before that, the people coming are milo, seth, nicole, ebony, sophier, riley, lonnox, sydney, talia if shes allowed since her parents hate me basically. OH YEAH- WHAT GENDER AND ********* DO U IDENTIFY WITH NOW? ARE YOU STILL NON BINARY AND PAN? If not then what gender and ********* are you bow? Anyways i have to go now also my fingers are really aching from typing for ages aswell cya!