A letter from February 16th, 2021

Dear FutureMe, I hope you are happy, because right now while I'm writing this I'm not. I'm probably at the worst point in life I could possibly be at this age. I lost my best friend, I have a bad relationship with food and I have the feeling that nobody really cares about me. The only thing that I want right now is someone who just asks my if I'm okay, and that I can answer that I'm not okay, cause I cry every night because I don't know what to do anymore. Does this feeling ever stops cause I'm just so tired and the only thing that I do is trying to survive the day and hoping I'm not gonna gain weight, the only thing that I'm thinking about right now are calories and what I'm gonna eat next day and what lenya is doing and hoping that she is doing better then me, cause she deserves the world❤ But let's talk about our future, are you happy right now, are you where you want to be? Did you went wembley? Did you went to billboard and Grammys? How was your graduation? Are you fluent in mandarin? or any other language? Did you talked to lenya❤ is she happy?! Cause she deserves to be. And when not do something about it!!! Did you saw BTS live? Are they still together? Does namjoon has a wive and kids? Does any of them has a gf? How many followers do you have on inst etc.? Is it working with your " sneaker-business"? Where you popular in school? Did you made new real friends? And how is it going with the Corona virus? Can you go outside again without wearing a mask? Are you living in China or Korea? Cause I"m still getting homeschooled, 17.02.2021. In two weeks I'm mabey gonna go to school again? Do you still wanna be an architect or in engineer or do you still wanna write history, or do you already?