A letter from February 16th, 2021

Peaceful right?

Dear FutureMe, How are you feeling? I’m really scared, nervous and anxious right now. It’s currently 3 days before A’Level results release, but when you’re reading this, you already know your results. I just want you to know that we did the best that we could at that time without making extreme sacrifices, so whatever grades that we get, you don’t have to be happy with it, but please go easy on ourselves. We tried our best. I’m proud of us. From now on, I hope you figure out your path. Wherever the current takes us, we’ll make sure to go with it, keep afloat and never drown. Best wishes (like really, best wishes for us, I’m hoping to hear good news from you), PastMe

Epilogue

4 months later

Update for my PastMe!

I did - well, relatively okay, in hindsight - but the moment I got my results, I was dumbfounded. The first feeling I registered while sitting...

Reutsl orcnre psil, asw aenr ta saet my ta uctcglinh teh fo slsca teh ym ackb lslti pmsttnoenpadii ryad,oow of tbho teh snhda eht eedg. .
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Ymhrs,ecti arvuitoef was c of for tdtena piychss tmso tulr,areeit a fro ot c a a guisnrhc besjcut esneig d ym lla, rof adn ylalre uaeftrounnt olsse,sn. Teasl rneve i my i duclo do ta ecepetxd i hgttuoh for a tub to od s,ciecesn lewl aegdr trebte. Sa rfo ltratrieeu. . . Rfidne you utolitsnoacn nda f"nie lilw dotl wr,oyr itl my tadented newh erlcal ew erh od'"nt a do qi me i my eeofrb xeam: iwe areehtc both dya tahw earueltrti. Ess'h adn eno eht csdero fo an yet t,rohe otn su c eaebcus so a ngowr a, n,rowg. Tsill ot rt?e)he i a ecbtjus ,drage eicjvbeust wtah e(se ddi sur,e btu luetarteir is. . . Fo flee i dpositaniipgn ,all tsmo dgare uto htis the was. Tgo i seymlf uot adn tpso orcmapgin okwn rsests yrlael nagia uyo i my erpse hvae bfeore ot w?tha to fsymle. Mdeubr how slwaay rea ohw lwli theer rtmarse leeopp nad be ,em oeplpe nhat me rae atnh. Vaeaegr igneb lngo yphpa weer' ogod si nogueh as sa. Slaeep srseuoiy,l shit tibha, iyhstt spto l'tes.
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Dersco krna is oodg i ba,d ahtt 09, etreih vaaeegr i a isht nsipto out which 75 dolhus oto slhlgity at res,oc otn too talcalyu boeav ficlyra p,niot of tno. .
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Or sa nvee ym dscekoh dna ,itpoeidspadn aesdgr owt ot meac aptcec i day hucm of a i fater aeaprpietc felt opnimg, as. Cutjbse teh to!o erwe most rfo ,ceednuxept alauyrgb a a fro iltdfcfui s,reoc veha ofr hseet i sroedc vnee lgenrea dgears to na pepra, otw and ahtsm sure. Oyu ht?at rvee heets het rfo ellary ma fo udrpo olshoc ,c jtcsbesu a eelbvei vei' ni owt i doscre ihetsgh su wree anc. Urtyl. .
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Mnsguai nipto /,cd an in out i or bwneeet to ehrtie tacf lol eth that i oals ercso a on tnaw. I'm hreite elaylr i ti dgoo at uk,sc or. Who t'thsa eguss i i ,ma.
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Hwit teh a rp sthi 5,7 ohccei fo i a ieppdal veuitirensis as whti my setgbig cuitiammnoonc to sfrit ni mraoj eterh cu,orytn in. Yb dna ym rfo dfrofee tnu utnarnl,eyoftu asw cetlyloemp i adinset sun, colioys,og ho,icec codnse ctejeerd saw. Lweem,ihan ,mus me aegtnenmam rfdoefe nbusesis. .
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Funny gib spueru ,rmade a siad ,scuero to eeergd a - evenr ni a epno ",eski i eenv my sanoiiotmcnucm fro adh with a pu aecm aresy yu"o noe nad nglo nteieegh ,ilfe of ohw ylalfni rdema the evuinrse nhew ton i - ot. .
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Unissebs het mnaetmange deddeci edn to the ni etcapc i uroecs. Em pheapsr iltls hte in i natw dcoul to dael ot be weehr shit treufu.
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Egtnto ym ym flei ym htis srtif anyayw cdeson eoicch evren btu hcoeic, be 'eiv yam ni. My ryngsae,lt i eocich waslay egt nedcso. Oh lelw. Onr''ssea ist' anieldg se'cesu'x to leyfms ot sutj ertteb ro a,hpt ctoofrm a pu htiw lal rneotie,ninvt teehs hpsarpe or hawt psaperh ear si't of ivdine i pshpaer em meac. .
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Rructen em ,to eht nword yrt awrveeht ustj sayawl searrci i'm ratmte? rewheevr ,sya to edso it not awht dna lte's feelapycul o,n htap aflot leki we. 'tsel be pyhap. Aks lla nca 'tahts i ofr. .
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,vloe.
Emrutfeu.
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P. S. 'im u,s am eaylrl i fo updro. Tfsrofe sdtucoin i orf i woerkd ohw sit,h otu ew wonk darh otwn' adn. Feil osge !on.