A letter from February 15th, 2021

Hey there, it's me... your past self, I don't know where to start and what to write... I bet the past few years where quite hard for you and you faced a lot of struggles. As I am writing this letter I am struggling too much with my life, I do not know the right path, I do not know if I should just quit my major in the university and listen to my heart and start writing and drawing. I hope that you figured that out already and you're living our dream life. I hope that you finally started listening to your heart and start doing what you love. It is hard for me right now, because the path that awaits me is unknown and frightening, I am afraid to give up everything and move to another country and start my life, but I know that this is what I want to do. And as I am facing my fears right now, I hope that you - my future self - already beat them and it's living the life that we always dreamt of. I hope that you do not have any regrets and you are always smiling no matter how ****** our life is or was. No matter what, I hope that you've forgiven everyone who wronged us and you finally let go of our troubled past. I know how hard it must have been, I know that you still wake up in the middle of the night, you still have nightmares, I know you still cry yourself to sleep some nights, when the pain is so unbearable, but even then I hope you can forgive them and let go. I hope that you finally let go and move on from the hurt, resentment and anger. Away from feelings that may drag you down, thoughts that can slowly poison you and your outlook on life. Also, I hope you accepted yourself, all your flaws and finally start loving yourself. There is no one like you in this vast world, you are special, you deserve all the love you give and most importantly you are talented! Never question yourself again, because you have all the talent you need and I know you fulfilled our dreams. As you read this letter, I will be gathering my courage and I will be facing my fears. I will embark on a journey that will completely change out lives and I know I will face a lot of difficulties, but I promise you to never give up, to never let any doubts cloud my vision, I will never give up on our dreams, because I know you never did! As you read this letter, you will be smiling and crying( because I am crying rn, as I write this letter hahaha), because you will know how hard I tried. All I want you is to tell me that I did my best. I also hope that you finally met the one and you are in a happy and healthy relationship, because you deserve it. After all we've been through, I hope you can finally fall in love, without being afraid, without questioning your partner and without having any trust issues. I hope that you've finally let your high walls down. I really hope you are living well, my dear future self. I love you unconditionally, I will always love you, so wait for me. I am coming, we will meet someday <3 ! When you finally get this letter you will know I finally came to you! So wait for me! With love, Your past self P.S: At the end of hardship comes happiness( I hope you are truly happy... and you got all of the tattoos and piercings) <3 P.S2: Happy birthday! Forget the past, look forward to the future, for the best things are yet to come.