A letter from February 14th, 2021

Dear future me , I think it's pretty good idea to write letter for you future self, maybe you will do it again . I just want to remind you how perfect you are and not to give a **** about people's opinion. Everything happens for a reason. You are stronger that everybody and you think. Don't let anyone take you down. Please don't cry about people because you cared too much and at the end you are disappointed. Be that one girl everyone is talking about but in a good way ( how smart, pretty, incredible, etc. you are) . One advice: Don't let people in your life too soon. You will be 18 years old . I can't believe that. Right now I want to become a professional dancer or Victroria's secret runway model and study for becoming interior designer. I want to ride a motorcycle and of course a car but mostly motorcycle. Sometimes I think that there is something wrong with me but there isn't . The people I was surrounded with weren't the best company they are selfish, they talked behind people backs, they think they are the best , that they are always right but they are not. I'm tried to go away but my ex-best friend thought they are the best . She changed after we met them. There was always drama so I decided to leave her too and I think that was the best choice I've ever made. I feel so relieved like no one is holding me back from nothing . I couldn't be myself with them. Wish you found friends you can rely on. I tried a new dance company and I really liked it . The teacher made me a very good impression. But I still don't have friends there because I'm shy but I know I will make some even if it takes time .I hope they can push me up because my last dance company couldn't because they didn't separated beginners and advanced and the level of difficulty was too low . I really like the idea of boyfriend but I think I want to focus on myself for now - grow up like a person and be confident . I still will be checking out the guys in the subway. Somehow the hottest guys I've ever seen were in the subway. But you already know I didn't talk to any of them because I'm SHY and I want to change that. My grades at school are actually good and I'm really proud of myself for now because every year is getting harder. I think I'm almost every teachers' favourite student. My parents are fighting again because my mom is giving my dad chances and I really think that should stop but she thinks I can't get used to life whit out his money . Before 2 years ago my mom and I moved to my grandma apartment because we didn't want to see my dad and he didn't want to leave our apartment but after a couple of mounts he agreed to move out and we moved back in. After new year my mom gave him another chance he took it but didn't use it right . My mom is telling him just to sign the documents and finish whit everything already (for getting divorced) but he says that he wont do it . And he is making it harder for us because that's more money for lowyers and *********. He is wondering why I don't love him but it's hard to tell him that because it will hurt him so much. So... I hope they are divorced ( I know that's bad IT IS WHAT IT IS) in the future because I'm tired of this ****. I don't know why I'm going into details because you already know it all . Maybe because if something is changed you will remember how it was 3 years ago. You will remember how you were feeling and will compared old feelings with how are you feeling right now when you are reading this. Ps: I think my English is pretty good hahah Whit all the love in my heart: joy in English but in Bulgarian For everyone who is seeing this: be yourself and don't chance for people. You can do everything you wish for and you are the only person who can make you fall. You just have to believe in yourself. Sending love and hugs :)