A letter from February 12th, 2021

hey me. happy 18th birthday! i cant believe you're 18 already i'm 12 right now. I don't know what you're going through right now at this moment but I hope you're happy. I'm not entirely okay right now. I have struggles and i cry a lot. I know its not healthy but life isnt easy. Im studying for the shsat and its not- how do i explain this... its not good. Rachel is still my bestest friend and I cherish her a whole lot. There were times where I broke down. like joshua or inseong or anyone else. But i think now its time to move on you know? I should get on with life and live a little. take risks, do what i want in life, figure things out. I hope youre living life to the fullest right now so i dont regret it. Why isnt life so simple. I just wish life was easier. LIfe isnt fair and I wish I could turn back time and restart. Get into a good highschool, make your parents proud, figure out what you want in life because if thats what youre doing right now I have no regrets on living my life right now. If youre not doing these things then its okay. Its fine. You tried thats all that matters. Keep going sof. And find people you can depend on. If youre still single you dont need a man in your life you can be amazing my yourself. If youre taken then I hope the best for you and I hope you found youre soulmate. I really really have mixed feeling on everything and if you figured them out.. im proud of you. continue to live life as you want and since youre an adult now.. be free and life life without regrets. best wishes, youre 12 year old self