A letter from February 12th, 2021

Hi Loser, This is from 13 years old me. You should be, what? 18? That sounds cool. I wonder will you still use this email. Hope so. Corona Virus (Covid-19) is still here, 106,472,660 cases have been confirmed worldwide since late 2019. And 2,323,103 deaths have been recorded. We're doing online school at the moment. It's very hard to concentrate on the classes. Do you still write for Wattpad? I currently have 212 reads on a Marvel x Suicide story. The story has 12 votes and 0 comments. My account is called ************ (cause I'm a *****). I have 7 followers. Who are your best friends? Mine are Yazmin Keoghan/Daly, Eimear Lennon, Carla Kelleher and Isabelle Reardon. I have a boyfriend, Taylor Hawkins. He's 3 days younger than me. We've been together for around 4 months. Do you still use Tiktok? Ahahah, I'm guessing no. What about your One Direction FanPage on Instagram?? Do you still like One Direction, cause I'm obsessed. Was there a reunion? Do Harry and Niall have kids? Are any of them married yet? Is Larry true? How is Khai, Bear and Freddie? Is Louis still with Eleanor? What about Niall? Is he with Amelia? How about ZiGi? Liam and Maya, did they have a wedding yet? Is Harry really with Olivia? Was she really pregnant and did they get married? Have you met or gotten noticed by any of the boys? Cause if you did, that is amazayn. My fan page currently has 89 followers. How about you? Are you happy? Because I don't know right now if I am. Online School is so hard and I just want to take a blade from a pencil sharpener and slice open my skin. But I know I can't do that. I want to ask for help but I can't. I feel trapped. It's not enjoyable. I tell people how I feel, and they agree and then brush it off, like it's nothing and continue to show me all the clothes they're getting. And here struggling to stay alive and if I want new clothes, I have to pay for them myself. I want a bra and sweat pants and I have to find a way to pay for them. I'm going to try to get a job as soon as I can so I can pay for my own things and not have to ask for money. I had a breakdown in the kitchen last night at around midnight. I just want my friends. I really, really miss them. And Yazmin is cutting and I'm afraid I'm going to lose her. I can't do that, I really can't. I wouldn't be able to cope with the pain of her loss. There would forever be a whole in my life. I need her to survive. How are you spending your first Valentines Day as an adult? If you have a boyfriend and you're with him, I'm sorry for this email interrupting your night. Did you do TY in school or are you in college? If you're in college, what are you studying? Right now I want to sing for a living. It seems so exciting and wouldn't feel like work at all since I do it all the time. If you're not pursuing that, please become a teacher or a baker. I don't know where baker came from but just consider it. Ooh! Maybe an actress. You could meet Tom Holland or Cole Sprouse or Harry Styles which would be amazayn. I love you, (I hope you love yourself) and please be happy. Think positive. (Check the "Follow Your Own Path" book, did any of them songs become famous??) From a younger you, Happy Valentine's Day xx